Middle Earth (R/I): Understanding You..

Understanding You... Part 10

Falling in love, huh? I had grown uneasy to give that a try. I cant under no circumstances give it a go because I had to give up my life as a humanoid. I couldn't do that to the princess, agatha and everyone thats relying on me. This isnt a fact of finding love or not this is survival. My powers are a key to the survival on travels... when I came around I became vital to the royal family. I.. I...

Am I only making up excuses to avoid thinking on love? What is it but a nuisance. I cant love and I cant over no circumstances love an elf! Agatha said it herself they eat hearts for some weird reason. Why do they like eat hearts? I don't know. I am a humanoid over everything. I have to pick family over anything else like.. I know agatha is going to pick family. I am not chickening out of it. I am not a chicken. I am not afraid of anything except spiders. Humanoids can be afraid of something that's true. We can be kill as we have lost so many before I join the ranks. This is a lot to take in. I am (y/n) daughter of (m/n). I don't want to do my identity of who I am by changing. I dont want to fall in love, so I am not going to fall in love. 

We are here for the treaty. Nothing else and nothing more. Its a priority to keep our peace with middle earth for as long as that might be. I am not... this is hard. I didn't need to know this.. Well the Queen would have told me anyways. I am clueless of what to do or how to approach this. Love?? what's love anyways. How is it that something that does not exist scares me so much. I have been in my thoughts for the whole time while eating dinner. It's spectacular and delicious. I still feel like a fish out of water. I feel that I shouldn't be here in this room... I should have listen to Zorin maybe that way I wouldn't feel so confused. I should have ask her what does it mean to love? Can the future be change? Can the elf love another? Is that even possible? I have no idea, but I am sure Zorin can answer any of my questions if I just stop zooming out from whatever is happening outside.

The Princess glances at (y/n) sighing for the 100th time in a row she has been staring at her empty plate for the past 2 hours without picking anything to eat. The Princess has been wondering what got into her friend all of a sudden. She worries for (y/n) state of mind. Her mother told her not to worry, but she cant leave her friend sighing so heavily with no particular reason. The princess moves some of her (h/c) out of her face with a smile as you both lock eyes with each others, "(y/n) would you like to accompany me for a walk? I have things I need to speak with you", says the princess moving her chair back and standing up. She shakes her head to pearl then hurries (y/n) on her feet and out they go. The Queen stares at both of them with a smile on her lips, "Everything is in motion now". She tells the other humanoids who nod their heads in a satisfactory grin. The Queen might have encourage the princess to help fate a bit more than usual; however, that's something (y/n) will never find out.

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"I needed to be out of that room", The Princess holds your hand hostage not letting you out of her sight. A breath escapes her lips glancing towards you, "(y/n).. What did mother told you?". The Princess looks up at the uneasy expression (y/n) shows on your features the sense of inevitability in the air. The Princess slows down a bit with (y/n) staring anywhere else but the princess. No words left (y/n)'s lips with the princess waiting for anything that would help the puzzle in the princess's mind to help her understand, "Usually mother doesnt talk to you and Agatha in the same room or near each other. You are a strategist and my closest ally...". The Princess stops with you next to her. She takes a hold of your hands with a smile adorning her lips, "We are best friends after all. Mom always tells what she talks to you about, but this time she said you are the one that has to tell me... Are you okay? Is everyone good? Can I help you in anyway? I don't know or understand whats going on. I am not supposed to be here, you know? I came because mom insisted you had to come". The Princess smile breaks staring right into your soul leaving share words of emotion unspoken. (y/n) return the tighness on their hands link with a broken smile, "Zorin has seen my future, Ann. My jouney ends here in Middle Earth". (y/n) couldn't recognize the words coming out of yours mouth.