bloody notes ; phan

-16

5 days later

i didn't bother with going to see him.

i told him that night that i wouldn't call the cops on him if he stayed with me. how childish.

i don't have any extra money to spend at the moment trying to bail one of my past boyfriends out of jail. and, i feel that he should pay for what he has done.

i enter the apartment once again, but it's dark and gloomy, not the way it used to be.

when i step into the living room all of the color fades back, gradually. then, i see us. memories of movie marathons when he would snuggle up against me, or when he'd be editing a video and i'd sneak a kiss. i feel the room coming back to life, when i feel a hot tear rolling down my cheek.

i walk back into dan's bedroom. the piano that collected so much dust is now perfect again. he's playing for me, i'm sitting beside him with my hot tea, laughing playfully.

the room starts to fill up with so many memories, so many that i start sobbing. i run out of the room, passing through all of the ghostly memories. i slam the front door, trying to regain myself. dan howell might have been a murderer, but he was my boyfriend.

i got really sad writing this chapter even though it's really short (they all are) but like i made up this whole backstory and stuff and i got really emotional, also if anyone knows the song through glass? yeah i listened to that and the kill the whole time i was writing this chapter.. so go listen to that while you read? idk i don't even listen to that type of music but you know gOoDbYe