Diary Evening Cicadas

Day #3: August 21, Keep Surrounding You

Yusuke POV

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August 21, 08:15
Keep Surrounding You

It's terrible, I suppose it's been five day since I start talking to her, but how she responded me, isn't really what I had expecting. She will never replied with something like what does she really want and needed. She always replied, "I'm okay, it's not really a problem," and something like that.

If just once, she would tell me what she really wants so I could brought up what she really wants. I just those surrounding people stops they act right now. They were just like her shadows that never quit to surround them.

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How long has it been since she keeps talking "it's okay" to me? I'm getting bored from just staring her with my two eyes. She were really never reacted anything, but I just really want her to start acting with her surrounding. I know that she's keeping something from me.

Another asking will never be a bother right? As long as I keep worrying about her, this feeling is killing me bit by bit. Sigh, Ren, what is trully your feeling right now? I can't stop worrying.

"Ren, what is trully your wishes?"

After not long enough that I asked, a drip of tears drop at the floor and soon fade. Is she crying? Is this that she keeps hiding from last week? Looking at her, crying, it makes me want to cry too. I knew that she's lonely, but I can't act either. Either way, I could only observe and worrying her, nothing more to do.

"Yu-chan, you're never tired huh? Since we were children, you will never tired to worried about me. Yu-chan, I want to get out but it's impossible now!~. . ."

So this is that keeping her? She want to get out? Then why she can't get out? It's easy if you reacted to them, and fight them back. Ren, this is why you should try to act by yourself, or you should to, maybe I'm not always be with you.

"Ren, it's not about getting out, it's about how to convince your feeling. It's killing me, how you act so calm in those circle of people. . .-"

As long as you were convince to do something about them, I could be relief, because I really love you. I'm really care because I don't want your mental being hurt like this. It could broke your physics too, and I don't want you to being erased by the reality.

"Yu-chan, can you go home with me?"

Of course, it's a good idea for her to talk out her feeling to me. I want her to open up to me, so I could help her to cheers up and refreshen her out. I nodded to her and smiled to her, for a yes to her.

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So, she intended to do that huh? How should I stop her and save her out? I can't do anything with just this small body I have. I'm just 14 years after all, it's kind of killing myself too.

Sigh, Ren, what you're intended to do, is out of my power right now.

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