Diary Evening Cicadas

Day #6: August 26, Childhood

Yusuke POV

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August 26, 23:30
Childhood

Remember, when the time you're crying because you lost your teddy bear? You were crying in front of me, right? You said that you're afraid to go home, because your mom could be really mad of you. But then, I promised you to search the teddy bear with you, and help you out. From then, you would always called me a 'hero' because I saved your backs back there.

But now, I'm no hero, because I'm weaker than I thought. I have let you down right now, because I can't help you out, nor will I search for you. I already broked my promise, to become your hero all the time.

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[ 7 Years Ago ]

"Yu-chan!~ Uuuu, Yu-chan!~"

I approach Ren that's crying for tears. I couldn't help seeing her crying like that, it's hurting my chest. After all, I love her so much, like a little sister. Ren is my best friend, but she's a year younger than me. I treated her like a royal princess, because my mom always said a girl should be treated with a lady like.

"Ren, what's wrong?"

As I approached her, I saw her sitting on the grassy land with her cheeks wet from tears. She then cries more, even thought I didn't do anything. She then tried to talk to me, with her sobbing manner.

"Hiks, the Teddy Bear you gave me. . I-it's gone! I-it's now. . Hiks, huwaaaaa!!~"

She cries even louder as I start to comfort her and calm her down. As I look around and see nothing but grassy land beside a river, I thought I see a Teddy Bear stucks between two rocks that on the river. I then wipe out her tears and telling her "it's okay" and then run to the river, and swim to the Teddy Bear. I could feel that Ren is staring at me right now.

"Y-Yu-chan, w-watch yourself!!~"

I reach the Teddy Bear and start to swim back to Ren. I know, this is really bad, because my mom will always avoiding me to swim on the river, because it's causing a dirt everywhere. But, in an attempt to make Ren smile again, I'm okay if mom really mad at me.

"Yu-chan, your mom is gonna be mad at you. . Hiks, I-i'm sorry!!~ Huwaaaaaa!!~"

And again, she back to her crybaby personality. I tried to comforted her with a pat on her head, and telling her "it's okay". Yes, I will always be Ren hero. And I will always sacrifice anything for her happiness. And we will happily life together for eternity.

But, that was just what I thought. . .

Not long after that, Rens' parents got a new job and they had to move out to Tokyo. She said that she don't want to go, but her parents were really mad at her when she said that. When she was about to move her things, she came to me and cried like a crybaby. And again, as her hero, I pat her head to comfort her and telling her to stop crying.

"Y-Yu-chan. . . I-i'm sorry. . ."

"I-it's okay! Take this with you!"

I give her my diary book that fills with our moment together. Starts with the first time we became friends, until now. I want her to keep her memories about the both of us, and never forgot about the happiness that we enjoy every time.

"B-but, Yu-chan, th-this is. . ."

"I want you to take it, because I want you to never forgotten about me!~"

As I smiled to make her trust me, she take it with her and tried to smiled, even thought that tears keep flowing on her cheeks. I know, this is 'goodbye', I know that I 'smiled', I know that I 'cheered' you up, but actually, deep inside that I'm really suffered from not having her by my side.

"There's no one anymore, no one to make bonds with me. . ."

I realized for what I just said, and I knew right away, that my tears is over flowing too. This is disgusting for such a hero. Such a botter, this is really annoying and super lame.

"Ren. . . I love you. . ."

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