Idiots In Love (MikaYuu)

Safe And Sound

((In this human AU, Yuu struggles with depression, usually turningbto music to help him through it. Mika comes home to try and elevate his spirits, knowing the effect of depression on Yuu.))

Yuu sat on the double bed, headphones jammed on his ears. He sang along loudly, stopping only to spoon more peanut butter into his mouth. He waited patiently for Mika to get home from work, and, since he was hungry and couldn't cook for shit, he ate peanut butter while he waited.

I face my fear of the cold nights
When you leave me behind
I felt your hands in my hair, I felt your breath on my neck
Yeah, I need to feel you again

Yuu sang along, using his peanut butter covered spoon as a faux microphone. He actually wasn't too bad at singing, crooning out the words with a level of sophistication that most wouldn't expect out of the raven haired boy.

Our eyes, fighting the light
Cause its not time to say goodnight
I try and hold on tight
Cause I don't wanna say goodnight

Yuu sighed as the song drifted off into mere piano notes, signalling it's end. Dim light escaped the heavy curtains, giving only the slightest illumination in the room. Yuu laid on the bed, drowning in his melancholy. Listening to music helped lighten his mood a bit, but it doesn't take away the feelings completely. As it stood, Yuu didn't feel like getting out of bed at all. He lay there, in near darkness, singing softly with his music and eating peanut butter. It was actually soothing. He reveled in the quiet instead of feeling bored.

It starts with pain, followed by hate
Fueled by the endless questions no one can answer
A stain covers your heart

Yuu sighed, closing his eyes at his favourite song, A World So Cold. A familar numbness filled his heart. He hoped Mika would be home soon to distract him.

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Mika sighed, tugging on his tie as he walked through the door of his and Yuu's apartment. He stopped in his tracks when he heard Yuu singing.

What kind of world do we live in
Where love is divided by hate?
Selling our souls for no reason
We all must be dreaming this life away
In a world so cold

Mika held his breath, in awe at the beauty of Yuu's voice. He tiptoed silently to the bedroom, and opened the door.
He saw his dark haired lover clutching a pillow, singing softly with his eyes closed. Their room void of light, and a forgotten jar of peanut butter lay close to him. Headphones silenced the world around Yuu. Mika smiled sadly. He now knew what kind of day this is.
"Hey, Yuu-chan, love..." Mika gently sat next to Yuu, tenderly stroking his hair. "Are you alright?"
"'M fine, just..." Yuu sighed heavily, tired emerald forests meeting kind azure heavens, "tired. I'm very, very tired. God, I missed you." Yuu clutched Mika's hand, bringing it to his lips.
"Have you gotten out of bed at all today?" Mikaela murmured, settling into bed with Yuu. He wove his arms around Yuu, who contentedly snuggled closer. Mika realised Yuu was cold to the touch.
"No. I just couldn't. I dunno." Yuu whispered, uncharacteristically open. "Maybe there's something wrong with me. Mika, I..." He couldn't finish.
"You have depression, Yuu-chan. I know you'd love to be running around all day, but...there are just going to be days where you can't. " Mika spoke in low tones, hugging him close. The blonde took an earphone out of Yuu's ear and put it in his own, quietly listening to Yuu's music as well.

What a peculiar state we're in
We'll find other pieces to the puzzle
That's slipping out under the locks
I could show you how many moves to checkmate right now

"I...I know, but..." Yuu grit his teeth, feeling so intensely vulnerable. "I just feel so weak. I hate it. I just feel this pull, a-and...god, it's just so...tiring." Yuu made a sound of discontent at the inability to put his emotions into words. Mika nodded, placing a soft kiss on the other's neck. "I understand. Yuu-chan, you aren't weak. I think you are incredibly strong for pushing through this. I'm certain it's not easy. I'm still proud of you, even if the only thing you did today was breathe."
"I...thank you, Mika. For being here." Yuu murmured, buring his face on Mika's warm chest. "Today was...hard."

I've been sitting at the bottom of the swimming pool
For a while now, drowning my thoughts out with the sounds
But do you feel like a young God?
You know, the two of us are just young Gods

Mika smiled, and pulled the blankets over their bodies. The sun went down, and the two lovers were blanketed by night. Yuu and Mika would whisper to each other, or just lay there, listening to music. In the darkness, Yuu felt more secure, and he was able to talk about his feelings more freely. Mika listened intently, never passing judgement. They lay there, in each other's arms, silently supporting each other.
"Thank you." Yuu breathed, kissing Mika oh-so-gently.
"Mm? For what?" Mika mumbled against his lips.
"For being here." Yuu restated simply , breaking into a smile. "It means the world to me. "
Mika was touched. It was so rare for Yuu to be so open with whatever he felt in his heart, Mika couldn't help but appreciate this vulnerability for it's openess, for it's nakedness. In all the years he's known Yuu, it was moments like these that Mika feels he learns the most about Yuu.
"No need to thank me, Yuu-chan. I'm here for you. Always."
Mika chuckled quietly when he realises that Yuu fell asleep. Mika fell asleep shortly after, their headphones still playing a soothing lullaby.

You and I'll be safe and sound.

((If anyone is wondering, the songs i used were:
-A World So Cold, by 12 Stones
-Young Gods, by Halsey
-Safe and sound, by Taylor Swift
-Eyelids, by Pvris
-Au Revoir, by OneRepublic))