No one loves me and no one ever will. (Norman Reedus daughter)

21-The Decision

Now Isabella's POV

That...memory... It helps me a little. With Faith and...Felix. It helps me know what I kinda want. But at the same time...I don't know what I want.

I look at dad. A few tears slip down my face.
"Dad...I'm scared." I whisper.
He whipes them off and hugs me.
"Don't be...this is up to you. But know one thing. Mingus and I will always be here for you if you want him with us or your not ready." Dad says.
I smile at him and hug him tight.
"Thank you dad. I have no idea what I'd do without you." I say.
He smiles and kisses my head.
"Me too kiddo."
I look at Mingus and Faith. I miss talking to Mingus and Faith. But I'm still mad at them...I hope. Mingus smiles at me and so did Faith. They were holding hands. I know Jackson hates Mingus and Mingus hates Jackson. Jackson squeezes my hand. I look at him.
"No matter what you choose, I'll always be here for you. I do love you and I wanna be in your life." Jackson smiles.
I smile back and kiss his cheek. I look at dad again and take a deep breath.
"Dad...I want...I want my baby.."
Dad looks at me then at Jones. He nodd at her and she nods back. She stands up and walks into another room. I lean on dad and he hugs me tight.

Later that day

Me, Dad, Kelly and Mingus are in the living room. Jackson and Faith left. Jackson left to go do some shopping I guess. Which is weird. But Jackson different and I like that. Faith probably went to her parents house but I'm not so sure. Jones is making a few calls. She gets off the phone and smiles at us.
"So will we get him?" Dad ask.
She nods.
"Yes. They took him from Clayton care taker and I don't think we need to go to court but I'm not so sure." Jones explains.
We nod. I sit up and looked at her.
"When will I see him?" I ask.
"Well...they have to tell Clayton and he probably wants one last hug or whatever from Felix. So we could go to the prison or wait."
I looked at dad. He knows what I'm thinking. He nods.
"Can we go to the prison?" I ask.
She smiles and nods.
"Of course. But we should go now then."
We all nod. We got up. We all walked to the car. I got in back with Mingus but I didn't say anything to him. Dad was driving and Kelly was in the passenger seat. I sighed then lean my head on the window. I really hope we go home after this. I text Jackson.

Me: We're on our way to go get Felix.
Jackson: You mind if I meet you there?
Me: No of course you can. Jack...
Jackson: Yeah Bells?
Me: I'm really scared
Jackson: I know. We'll be okay I promise. We got this. I love you.
Me: I love you too. See ya there

I smiled at his text.
"Dad are we going home after this?" I ask.
"Yeah." He says.
I sighed and looked at him. I wonder if he's mad at me. We got to the prison. I got out of the car. Dad gets out too. Everyone does. I look at dad.
"Dad...are you mad at me?" I ask.
He looks at me. And shakes his head 'no.'
"No of course not. Why would you think that?" He ask.
I shrug.
"You just said 'yeah.' To me and nothing else." I said.
"Oh Bella. I didn't mean it like that. I just....its been a long day and a lot has been on my mind. I'm sorry." Dad sighs.
I nod in understanding. He puts his arm around me.
"Love you Isabella."
I rolled my eyes and smirk slightly.
"Love you too father."
He laughs and I laugh too. My weird dad.

We walk in. I'm a little scared. But we're waiting on Jackson. I look for him. I hear the doors open. I hope that's him. I look. It's him. His hair is messy and he red. I have a thought then I shrugged him off. I turn my back on him. I nod my head toward the door. Dad squeezes my shoulder. He smiles and I smile back at him. We walk in. I see Clayton cry. Jones is standing by other man. Clayton holds Felix. My breath becomes shakey.
"Don't feel sorry for him Bella." I heard someone say.
I turn to see Mingus.
"I'm trying." I mumbled.
He laughs and stands by me.
"What happen to the heartless Isabella Carson Reedus I know? Where's my real sister?" Mingus smirks.
I laugh and smirk back.
"She still here Ming. Just numb at the moment."
He nods in understanding.
"Still mad at me?" He ask.
I shake my head 'no.'
"No...no I'm not. I need you and Faith in my life. We need to talk when we leave." I said.
"Why not now?"
I look around. Then look back at him.
"We just can't."