Designated Driver (Kurtbastian)

Chapter Six

Sebastian opened the door to see Kurt standing there with fresh tear tracks on his face. He quickly ushered him in and led Kurt to his bed. Sebastian sat down next to him and placed his hand on Kurt's shoulder before asking, "What's wrong?"

Kurt shook his head, not looking at Sebastian, and mumbled, "It's probably nothing."

"Kurt, whatever has you so upset isn't nothing."

"It's just, none of my friends understand and I can't talk to my dad because it's still hard for him and he doesn't even know the full story and-"

"What happened?"

Kurt took a deep breath as he moved to lean back on the wall, Sebastian's arm falling off his shoulder in the process. Sebastian stayed put though, wanting to give the boy space.

"During glee club, my coach announced our new assignment." Kurt took a small inhale. "It was mothers and I don't know what to do because I don't think I can go through a song without breaking down."

Sebastian was fuming. What kind of teacher was running the club? The death of Kurt's mom happened when Kurt was in High School, so wouldn't he know that the topic would be a hard one for Kurt? God, Sebastian hated public schools.

"Can't you just skip the assignment?" He asked.

"I would, but I would get a bad grade on the assignment and I need the best grades I can get for college."

"Can you get excused from it?"

"Unless I was one of his favorites, Mr. Schuester wouldn't let me get away with not doing it."

What kind of teacher was this guy?

"Well, what do you want me to do?"

"Could you just-" Kurt sighed. "Help me find a song?"

"Of course, I'll do anything to help."
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Kurt sat through Rachel's "heart-wrenching" solo slouched back in his chair. Before she started, Mr. Schue had told her that it was okay if she wanted to skip the assignment, in case it was too hard for her to sing about her childhood without her mom. Rachel, being who she was, didn't pass the chance to show off her talent.

Kurt looked down at his phone when he felt it vibrate and saw that it was from Sebastian.
While they were finding songs the day before, Kurt found that he actually enjoyed talking to the warbler. He was witty, charming, and had a real depth that Kurt hadn't seen when he had first met him. And throughout the day, Sebastian had been sending Kurt words of encouragement and funny pick-up lines. It had helped distract Kurt from his stress and
he couldn't wait to see the next text. But before he could look, Mr. Schue went up to the front of the room to pick the next name out of the hat.

Mr. Schue, in an attempt to prove that he didn't have favoritism, decided to pull names out of a hat instead of choosing Rachel as the first one to perform. Rachel had begun huffing before it was announced that Quinn was going to go first and Mr. Schue had silenced the brunette with a stern look. After Quinn, Tina and Finn went before Rachel had stridden up. There was time for one more and Kurt was hopeful that he wouldn't be picked.

But as luck would have it Mr. Schue exclaimed "Kurt", his facial expression showing that he wasn't going to bother making sure that Kurt was alright with singing a solo about his deceased mother that he seemed to forget.

Kurt took a deep breath before standing up. He brushed invisible lint off his pants before walking to the middle of the room. He didn't go over to the band because he had told Paul, one of the jazz band members who was in his English class, what song he was going to sing.

He and Sebastian had spent two hours trying to find the perfect song to sing that expressed how he felt about his mom, but not enough to cause him to breakdown in the middle of the choir room. He took another deep breath, said nothing except "This is for my mom", closed his eyes and started.

Sha la la la la, sha la la la la
You used to call me your angel
Said I was sent straight down from heaven
You'd hold me close in your arms
I love the way you felt so strong

I never want you to leave
I want you to stay here holdin' me

I miss you, I miss your smile
And I still shed a tear every once in a while
And even though it's different now
You're still here some how

My heart won't let you go
And I need you to know
I miss you, sha la la la la
I miss you

Kurt didn't bother opening his eyes. He knew that he would see realization, sadness, pity, guilt. He didn't want everyone to see the tears in his eyes, even though he could feel the first drop start to trail down his cheek. He made sure to keep his mind far away from his mom though, and he wasn't ready to be that vulnerable in front of the entire club.

I miss you, I miss your smile
And I still shed a tear every once in a while
And even though it's different now
You're still here somehow

My heart won't let you go
And I need you to know
I miss you, sha la la la la
I miss you...

Once the music trailed off, Kurt finally opened his eyes, and wiped the tears from his face. He didn't look at the group; he just went on autopilot and grabbed his things, not bothering to answer when Mr. Schue told him to wait.

All Kurt wanted to do right now was to crawl under his covers and sleep for a week. But he knew that he had to give Sebastian a call. He got to his car before leaning against his door and hitting the call button.

"Hey Sebastian, I just did it."

"Really? How are you feeling?"

"Better than I thought I would." Kurt's voice shook at the end of the sentence as he wiped away a stray tear.

"Do you want to come over?" Sebastian asked, sensing that Kurt was upset.

"Sure, if you don't mind?"

"No, I'll see you soon. Bye Kurt."

"Bye Sebastian."
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As soon as Kurt left, Blaine immediately got out of his chair and ran after him. He knew that this was his chance to convince Kurt to forgive him. Kurt would need comforting, and Blaine had the shoulder Kurt could lean on.

Blaine slowed down his walk when he spotted Kurt leaning against his car with his phone to his ear. He didn't want to interrupt Kurt and cause him to get even madder at him than he already was. Who was he calling? Blaine decided to get closer to Kurt, so he went behind the car that was next to Kurt's. He made sure that he stayed out of view, but could still hear the countertenor.

"...just did it." Blaine heard Kurt say. He assumed Kurt was talking about his solo, but why was he calling someone about it? Was he talking to a new boyfriend? No, that couldn't be. There were barely any gay guys in Lima; much less those who would want to date Kurt. Yeah, Blaine loved Kurt, but he loved him for his personality. He wasn't vain. And even though he loved his ex-boyfriend's personality, it could be difficult to handle at times. So, who was Kurt talking to?

Blaine shook his head out of his thoughts when he saw Kurt's face break out into a small smile. Wasn't Kurt just crying? Who could he be talking to that could cheer him up that fast?

"Bye Sebastian."

Blaine's eyes widened when he heard who Kurt was talking to. Was Sebastian seriously talking to Kurt? That didn't make any sense. Sebastian was into him, not Kurt. It must have been another Sebastian.

But just to be safe, Blaine should probably go follow Kurt. He quickly ran to his car, glad that Kurt hadn't left yet. As Kurt pulled out of the parking lot, with Blaine close behind him, Blaine hoped that Kurt wasn't driving to see Sebastian Smythe.