Wake Up// Shut Up Flower Boy Band(Shut Up and Let's Go)

#18: a night to last forever

"Now where the hell can it be?" I searched around my room for my bag for school. I was gonna be late and I was crazy about being on time. I specfically remember putting my bag right next to my bed last night. Where is it? I swear I'm going to go crazy.

"Mi Young."

I looked up to see Hyun Soo holding up my bag, leaning his head on the doorframe and having a depressed look on his face. I sighed with relief. My body untensed. "Thank God you found it." I went to reach for it but Hyun Soo pulled it back from me. I frowned. "Hyun Soo, give me the bag."

Hyun Soo shook his head. "Mi Young, can you please stay home for just for today?" He looked into my eyes so geniuenly. He was still affected with what happened last night. I stared at him for a good thirty seconds. He needed me to stay.

I sighed; my body dropped and nodded. "Okay." For a small second, a sign of relief flashed over his face before he hid it skillfully behind his typical poker face around me. "What do you want to do then?"

Hyun Soo shrugged and stepped into my room, placing the bag right next to the door. "I need a day to think. I need a break. I need to be away from the guys." He slid his back on the wall, down to the floor, sitting.

I sat down on the floor across from him, our feet a foot apart. "How do you feel after last night?"

Hyun Soo looked down at his hand, the bandage I watched him put on himself last night still in place. He shrugged again. "I feel pretty shitty to be honest." He paused. His face getting emotional and eyes getting teary. But he managed to keep it together. All emotion was erased from his face, and replaced with his usual cold expression. "It's all my fault."

I shook my head and placed my hand on his knee. "Hyun Soo, don't think like that. It was not your fault at all. Don't say that." He has always been so hard on himself, especially when he shouldn't be.

"Big brother! Big sister!" Da Som's cute little voice called for us. Her cute little self walked into my room with a huge smile on her face. Gosh she was so precious. "What are you guys doing in here?" She asked us in her cute little voice.

I gave her a huge smile. "We were just about to come out to see you, Da Som-ah." I stood up from the ground and grabbed her hand. "Let's go for a walk." I looked back at Hyun Soo. "To clear our heads."

He nodded. "Yeah, a walk."

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Hyun Soo dodged every try I tried bringing up our conversation. It was late now and we have been walking around for hours. We sat at a park bench. It was cold and Hyun Soo bought our sister a warm food. I snuggled into Ha Jin's scarf. One day I will give this back to him but today was not that day. Da Som sat between us. Hyun Soo gave her the warm food. "It's hot. Be careful."

Da Som looked down at the food and then back up at him. "When is Ji Hyuk coming?"

Hyun Soo paused. "You miss him?" She nodded. Hyun Soo turned away and hesitated. Oh no. "He might not come," he said. He smiled, trying to keep it together. He never wanted to look weak for Da Som nor me. He paused again. "Because I screwed up."

I sighed. "You didn't screw up, Hyun Soo."

He shook his head and nodded. "No, Mi Young, I did screw up." He looked up at the stars. "Back in the old days, any team Ji Hyuk and I were on always won. We dominated our neighborhood games. And at soccer, Ji Hyuk and I would win 100 matches out of 100." He smiled while saying that. I remembered that time. He was truly the best one on the team but with Ji Hyuk's leadership, they were able to do anything.

Hyun Soo looked down, his face dropped. "But...one day, Ji Hyuk wouldn't come out to play."

"It's hot!" Da Som exclaimed as she was eating towards the center of the food. I looked down and smiled at her. I grabbed her by her right shoulder, which was furthest from me and brought her into a hug, rocking side to side with my chin on the top of her head.