Meant To Be

Chapter 5

{CARRIE}

Suddenly all the memories that I had with Alex flashed through my head. I was stuck, lost, unable to say anything, everything was a blur. I feel Alex move away from me untangling our bodies, he gets up and rushes for the door, I shout his name. He doesn't turn back and leaves our apartment.

Oh god, he left me, he hates me. I start shaking, I wrap myself up with the couch blanket and try to steady my breath, here we go I ready myself for the worst; my head is pounding now, I was sweating but I'm cold. I want to run but I can't move, my hands are numbing, I try and rub the feeling back into them, failing miserably. Alex I think, I need Alex, I concentrate and using the little energy I have left I reach for my phone, I look for Alex's number everything's blurry. I blinked and squinted at my screen finally pressing his number, the phone rings, "pick up," I whisper to myself, "please pick up," I beg. "Hello?" I sigh at the sound of his voice, "Alex," my voice cracks and I'm finally crying, "come back," I manage as I concentrate on breathing. "Shit," I hear him mutter, understanding, "I'm on my way." The door slams open a couple minutes later and he's rushing to me, "Carrie, it's ok, I'm here now it's ok," he whispers grabbing my hands and rubbing them knowing exactly what to do, "you're going to be ok," he says to me. I'm in tears, hiccuping, gasping for air as my head spins, I'm a mess I think; Alex just sits holding me and my hands. My breathing steadies and my heart rate slows, I start feeling my fingertips again, Alex still has his arms around me and is watching me, I sigh and look up to him.

Alex no matter what is always there, he knows me better than anyone and I do need him. "I'm so sorry," Alex says as he moves his hand to smooth down my hair, "I never want to make you feel like this, I'm sorry Carrie." I have had anxiety and panic attacks since my teenage years, I don't handle feeling alone, being stressed or being in crowds very well, I was lucky this was just a minor attack. I snuggled closer to Alex look at him in the eyes and all I say is: "yes."

Alex looks at me in confusion, then understands, "really?" You could see the happiness in his blue eyes. "Yes," I say again, I slowly lean up toward Alex, and I feel his hands cupping my cheek, when I started to have feelings for Alex I wasn't sure, but I always pushed them aside trying not to ruin our friendship, right now all I wanted was him. Our lips touched slightly, "yes, I'll date you," I finally whisper to him; and then we kissed more passionately as I moved to sit on Alex's lap, letting my hands run across his back and chest until we finally broke apart, remembering to breath. "So, it seems like you're all better," he jokes and smirks.

{DAN}

It has been four days since I had last saw Phil, he has spent days in his room and I was worried. I finally decided to go and check on him, "Phil!" I yelled knocking on his door; walking in anyway I see him laying face down on his bed. "Leave," he says to me, "no," I answer. "What do you want Dan," he asked clearly annoyed, "I want your ass out of your room and for you to get on with your life," I say firmly. Phil then throws the closest thing to him at me which luckily was a stuffed animal, "you don't get it Dan!" He yells, "do you know how freaking depressing it is to get your heart smashed to shits by every girl you date? I'm sorry if I'm bothering you by not being there so that you can brag about your perfect fucking life, so piss off!"

"well whilst you're in this mood maybe I will," I storm out of him room slamming the door in the process. What the hell was that for? All I was doing was trying to help, Phil has got to get a grip, I sigh and pour myself some milk. Maybe Carrie would know what to do; so I grab my laptop and email her:

Carrie,

i'm having trouble with Phil...all the girls he dates end up breaking up with him rather harshly and he goes through what i call "the cave stage" he won't leave his room, and if i try and talk to him he yells.. any advice?

Dan x

A/N: soo another chapter is up for you loveliess :) wheeee for romanceeee.. i hope you all like this chapter! thankyouuu for almost 100 reads, it does mean a lot.. i probably won't update again till the weekend but add this story to your library to know when a new chapter is up! also thanks for the nice comments and for the votes x