OUTCAST (Luke Hemmings Fanfic)

Chapter 6

/Alex's POV:/ *TW*

Tomorrow everything would change.
I walked into my house "hey mom" I said smiling, I was actually happy for once, shocked by my nice attitude she just smiled, and carried on with her ironing.

I walked into my room and flopped onto my bed trying to process everything that just happened, and all my problems and bad thoughts started floating back into my head, I'd been having so much fun, I didn't even think about my insecurities..
'I wasn't good enough for Luke, he didn't like me back, I was disgusting and worthless he could never like me'
I lay on my bed staring at my ceiling, a tear slowly falling down my cheek, why did I have to be like this?

I reached into my draw searching for that small piece of metal that somehow took all the pain away and was startled by my phone vibrating

/Bzzz/

I checked who it was and it was the one and only Luke Hemmings

"Hey Alexis Elizabeth Black :P"

"Ew don't call me that, what do you want Hemmings"

"Just checking in on you, what's up?"

"Nothing, I'm fine Goodnight"

I didn't bother reading any other texts he sent me, I wasn't in the mood. I felt like utter shit, and honestly wanted to die there and then.
How could I have thought that Luke would ever like me, would ever kiss me, would ever want me? I'm fucking delusional. I hate everything about myself.

I ran to the bathroom and threw up the very little food i had eaten that day, atleast that would make me feel a little better, I stumbled back to bed, shaking and cold, too tired to hurt myself any more.

I must've fallen asleep because I don't remember anything else happening that night as I woke to my annoying alarm clock. 7am. 1 hour till Luke comes.

/Lukes POV:/

As soon as I got home I texted her, she was the only thing on my mind, and I had to speak to her

"Hey Alexis Elizabeth Black :P"

I don't know why I called her by her full name, I just found it cute, I'm guessing she didn't as I received her reply

"Ew don't call me that, what do you want Hemmings"

She seemed annoyed.. Had I done something wrong? Was she okay? Oh god I ruined everything!

"Just checking in on you, what's up?"

I was starting to get worried, she was taking longer and longer to reply, was it me? did she hate me?

"Nothing, I'm fine Goodnight"

A little birdy told me that whenever someone says they're fine, they aren't..
I kept texting her, but expectedly there was no reply to any of them.
I ran downstairs and asked my mom if I could go check on her, which expectedly (is expectedly even a real word?)  the answer was no..
"Luke Hemmings! It's 11pm! You are not driving round the streets for some girl! You can see her at school tomorrow"

I rolled my eyes and headed up to my room, I could hardly sleep that night. I couldn't get her smile, her laugh, her everything off my mind.
I was falling and I was falling hard for Alexis Elizabeth Black.

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My alarm sounded for 7am, and I did NOT want to get out of my bed, I threw on some skinny jeans that were lying on the floor, and a random vans tshirt. I walked into the bathroom, hmm how should I do my hair today? Messy bedhair like always? Yep!

I greeted my mom downstairs with a kiss on the cheek and ran out the door, I was going to be late!

All time low blasted through the stereo on the way to pick Alex up, and I kept running my hands through my hair making sure I looked okay, what had gotten into me?

I pulled up and she was standing outside
"I thought you'd forgot about me" she said getting into the car,
"How could I do that" I winked, and started driving.

The ride was long and quiet, she sat uncomfortable, like she was hiding something and wanted to run away, I looked down and she was holding her arm, the one covered in bracelets that went up to her elbow.. Oh no.
Behind them was dark lines that marked her arms, I looked back at my own arms, my bracelets that covered my faded scars. Something I did not want us to have in common.
We were both broken. And I wanted to be the one to put her back together.
I - "I love you" I mumbled.
She gasped, shit! I said it out loud didn't I, I oh god
"Alex, I- i didn't mean to say it outloud, I didn't mean it like that I- oh god"

Her cheeks went bright red, and I put my head in my hands, "don't worry about it" she said looking out of the window trying to hide her face, "I know you didn't mean it like that" she sounded disappointed, I didn't understand what she was trying to say..
Did she think I was just some dumb jock who dates everyone?
I've really gone and ruined it this time.

I do not want to lose her. She is something special

A/N:
sorry this chapter was so crap! I had severe writers block, hopefully it'll get better soon with lots of Lalex fluff & they can get started on the geography project ;) stay tuned, I promise it will get better!