Now you know...

#Letter 1

                                              A letter to your best friend 

Dear Summer,

Hi. Sometimes we find a person, who is irreplaceable. They make you feel appreciated and special but are not afraid to show you your place either. You can have long conversations with them about almost anything. They are wise, and yet immature and fun, they level with you. They make things better, but they let you have your moments too. They are very similar to you, but they aren't afraid to disagree with you at times. And dear best friend, in my life, that is you. My best friend is my person. We've known each other a long time, almost 8 years now. Wow! Is it weird that I knew you'd be around for a long time, even before we became proper friends?

And I know I've told you this a million times already, but I'll repeat it. And I'll repeat it a thousand times, because it's true and nothing can change that. Our friendship makes me so proud, every time I think about it, think about us, I can't help but smile, I'm smiling right now. Because we have seen so much, we've seen our friends betray us and walk away as if we never mattered; we've seen a lot of friendships broken, and a lot more made. But our friendship stands tall, like an ancient antiquity, maybe a bit frayed here and patched there, but still standing strong. Old, but proud. I read this quote "Absence diminishes small loves and increases great ones, as the wind blows out the candle and fans the bonfire." And the first things that came to my mind was our friendship, because Summer, our friendship is a survivor and it survived the wind, the wind can never diminish it and it never will.

And Summer, I never tell you how much I appreciate you, and I'm sorry for that, but I feel like you know. You always know. You know me inside out and that should scare me to bits but it doesn't, because I know that you are the safest place I have. And I love the little things in our friendship; I love how we can talk for hours and yet complain that we don't have enough time. I love how I we can have deep and wise philosophical discussions with you, only you. I love how we can have 4 hour conversations about books. I love how we've known each other for about a decade, but still don't know everything about each other. And I love how we just start acting weirdly anywhere. I love how we can disagree on stuff, and yet be okay with it. I love how I can tell you anything without you judging me (and vice versa). And I love how you understand everything or try to. I love how you are brutally honest with me but are my biggest enforcer. And I know that we should be independent and the thought of dependence, to be honest, sometimes scares me but you are my rock, my bestie( pretty self-explanatory) and I cannot not have you in life. It's all soppy and sentimental now...

Random thought, I feel like the word platonic was invented to describe the relationship that best friends have.

I like to think that when we're 80 years old and in rocking chairs, we'll still be able to talk about new things, smiling toothless smiles and making fun of each other's eyesight. I like to think become flat buddies. I like to think that we travel the world someday. I like to think that I do all the things I want to with you. And it's so rare, but I like to think that our friendship survives the toll of distance and time, but...I can't promise this, neither can you, no one can...

But promises are priceless, and they bind us in way nothing can and they give us hope, and some things I can promise...

My cousin once told me(yes, the IIT fail ) that promises were meant to be broken, and I know that I shouldn't make promises I don't have control over, but I promise that I'll never forget you, I can't. I promise that I'll try my best to keep in touch forever and I promise that I'll name one of my kids after you( okay, so maybe I don't promise that.)And I promise to complete my bucket list with you. And I promise to never stop loving you.

Because Summer, the best thing about making promises to you is that you'll promise the same things back and more, even if the promises can't be promised. (Promiseception)

You always knew, but now you officially know.

-Love, Ida( We'll be book buddies forever though)