Have you ever had that feeling?
You are riding your bike. You see the sun going down and it becomes darker and darker at any second.
You have your headphones in real loud, listening to your favorite music.
You get lost in your mind and everything flashes. Good memories pass you and you enjoy the moment of being alone with just your mind.
You're doing great.
you are happy.
You wake up as a car almost hits you...
Better be careful. You don't want to die right...
Right?!
you stop for a moment.
negative thoughts flow through your mind.
You start to feel a sharp pain in your chest and your head feels like it is about to explode.
Question yourself.
What if i disappeared?
Who would care?
Do they even know i'm not at home?
Is it worth going back?
Feel the pain again?
How long is this going to continue?
When is this war gonna end? The war that is in my mind?
What's wrong with me?
...
Everything! (said the voice in my head.)
I turn back home greet my parents quickly and run upstairs.
I feel worthless and sleepy.
I lay down on my bed and don't feel like leaving the house anymore.
Like something or someone wants to keep me inside.
Like i need to hide from the world.
But i can't . i say to myself and as the morning rises again i wake up.
I get out of bed put on a big smile and go to work.
and so the day ends and starts all over again.
It is always the same...
