Written Love

Chapter One

AUTHOR'S NOTE

Okay, so multiple things. 1) this is my first book written in diary form, its new to me so it may suck. 2) sorry if this does suck, I wasn't sure how to start it.

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Friday September 25, 2015 ~ 10:30pm

Dear Diary,

Well, I know this is cliché teenage girl to do this, especially to write 'dear diary' at the top, but I just can't deal with keeping my feelings inside anymore. No one knows I have this, and no one will ever find out.

Let's start at the basics, my name is Riley Matthews and I am a Junior in High School. Being a Junior makes my life a lot easier because I finally have my driver's license and my parents trust me to do whatever I want pretty much. They even bought me a car for my 'beginning of the 10th grade present.' It's not a fancy new car, but it gets me where I need to be.

Okay, now let's talk about my friends. Maya Hart is my best friend, has been since we were five. I know that we are drifting apart, but she doesn't, I keep that information from her. I can't deal with her anymore because she is always with her boyfriend now, or always talking about him, which is weird because she used to tell me she had no love interest in him at all. Her boyfriend is also my friend, so I don't really mind him, but their relationship does bug me. Lucas Friar is an amazing guy and Maya deserves someone like him, but she doesn't deserve him specifically. I deserve him. And then there is Farkle. Farkle is becoming more my best friend than Maya. Farkle Minkus, also been my friend since we were five. He has vowed to love me and Maya the same no matter what. As of right now, he is single, but I think he likes someone, he just won't tell me who.

Okay, now back to the whole me deserving Lucas more than Maya. Here is THAT story...

Back in seventh grade when my parents had first let me take the subway to school, Maya was teaching me the ways of the subway and how it worked and everything. I, back then being naïve, wanted to be more like her, so she was helping with that as well. When she saw a cute guy, she pointed to him and said "how cool can you be talking to him?" I, again being young, smiled like a dork and giggled. I had nerves like hell and was too scared to go walk my ass over to him to say hi so Maya did. Maya made up this big thing and asked him out and then dumped him two seconds later, which apparently intrigued him. After talking to him she came back over to me and told me to go over to him. I was still too shy to go talk to a boy, so she pushed me his way and I fell in his lap. This, he didn't find interesting or intriguing. He picked me up and put me in the seat next to him and walking back over to Maya. Like, hello, I'm here too. So Maya being Maya, tried to fix the situation by talking me up to him, which apparently didn't work. I mean, he talked to me, but he kept looking over to Maya sitting alone. Needless to say, we all became close friends. I had a huge crush on him since the moment I saw him. He, on the other hand, had a little crush on Maya since the moment she dumped him on the subway. I tried so many times to lead him on to tell him that I liked him throughout seventh and eighth grade, but then one day over the summer before ninth grade I had to stop. I had to stop because Maya climbed through my bay window smiling like an idiot and then went on to tell me that Huckleberry, or Lucas, had asked her out and she said yes. At that point I didn't even know Maya liked him, which pissed me off, because I had told her everything about my life back then, and she didn't tell me something that huge. Well whatever, I told her that I was happy for her and that I was over him, even though I wasn't. And let me just say I AM STILL NOT OVER HIM.

I had thought all throughout Sophomore year that I was over him, and I was finally moving on with my life, but then a stupid game of spin the fucking bottle changed that. Lucas's spin landed on me and in the way my friends and I play, the person who spun has to kiss the person who it landed on, but the person it landed on can't kiss back. Well, that kiss sent sparks all throughout my body and lit up fireworks in my mind. Apparently, not for him. But of course, I told Maya I felt nothing so she wouldn't be pissed at me.