Written Love

Chapter Two

Saturday September 26, 2015 ~ 10:00am

Dear Diary,

I don't think anything big is going to happen today. I mean nothing big has happened this morning, and Maya already texted me asking to hang out, but then canceled twenty minutes later because Lucas asked her to hang out all day, alone, for a nice date, so it looks like I am staying home alone. I just hope Lucas doesn't tell Maya what he found out last night. I don't think he would, because he loves Maya and doesn't want to do anything to jeopardize their relationship, but who knows. I guess only time will tell.

I got up early for nothing to, which pisses me off, because I hate going back to bed once I'm up because I feel like it wastes my day then. So I got up, and got ready for a day out with my family and Farkle's family because our parents went to high school together and are still kind of close, but then Farkle's dad got called into a big thing with his business and Farkle's mom just wasn't feeling up to going out with him, so they canceled. Farkle offered for just the two of us to hang out, but I really didn't want to. Farkle knows me better than anyone, and I'm guessing he could tell I like the kiss and not going to lie, I kind of liked the kiss with him, and I don't want that to go anywhere because I still like Lucas and want to get rid of Maya, so I don't want to go out with him and possibly lead him on in case he liked the kiss too and would want to try a relationship or something.

I never went in detail about my kiss with Farkle, and I need to. I need to tell someone, even if it is just myself because it's not like I can tell Maya. She would just push Farkle and I closer together then and, again, I do not want that.

When the bottle landed on me after Farkle had spun it, I had no problems with it. Unlike me first make-out session that night with Sarah, this one would not be awkward. I crawled over to Farkle and sat down in his crisscrossed lap and put both my legs around his waist and locked my feet together. He wrapped his arms around my lower back and pulled me closer to him, which I didn't think was even possible already being in his lap. I was a little taller than him from being in his lap so he looked up slighting into my eyes and then looked down at my lips for a split second before crashing out lips together. It was a sweet kiss, I could smell his cologne, which I loved, but in that moment it seemed different, like it was his cologne was enticing me to stay near him for the last of the night, to stay with him. He softly bit down on my lower lip causing me to let out a small quiet moan that only he heard. He laughed silently and then continued kissing me, but this time with tongue. He lowly started to lean forward to lay me down on the carpet in front of him so I wrapped my arms tightly around his neck so we didn't have to break the kiss. I felt his hands drop from my lower back to the floor to hold us up as we lay down. I wanted his hands back around me, holding me. My back hit the floor and Farkle's weight shifted half onto me instead of all on his hands. With my arms still locked around his neck and flipped him over so I was on top, making movement easier because I could put all my weight on him. He tangled his hands into my hair and held my face against his. I trailed me hands down his sides to the bottom of his shirt and slowly reached under his shirt to feel his abs. I had completely forgot that there was other people in the room, let alone the fact that they were watching us, until Maya coughed under her breath and spoke up.

"Hello, did you hear Haley or not? Your seven minutes are up, they have been up for about thirty seconds now."

I rolled off of Farkle and laid on my back next to him for about five seconds, then I sat up and sat next to him instead of moving back to my open spot in the circle. Everyone else scooted over a little to close the gap.

I am honestly surprised Maya has not talked to me about that moment. I honestly don't know what I would've told her if she did ask though. Yes, I did like the kiss, but I have no idea if I liked it because I liked Farkle or if I liked it because it was a hot guy (yes I think Farkle is hot, maybe I do like him) was making out with me. I guess if Maya asks me now that I will tell her I enjoyed it but I am not going to act on it because I know that Farkle already likes someone and I don't want to complicate things for him or me.