I am fine during the day. My friends distract me. My music distracts me. They say it becomes easier, that I have to stay positive. It was 4 years with him and he ended it like that. I could have helped him. I wanted to help him. But he needed time and I need space. I love him, and he loved me. The pain is manageable, so are all the looks. What is not is knowing he is happier without me, when I depended on him for so much he was independent. Now that I look at it maybe we were not healthy, but I was happy. He needed something different while I need him. He knows absolutely everything about me and I him. How can you go from talking every day to not at all? How can people go from being so close to complete
strangers? Do I want him back again? Does he want me back again? Do I wait? Do I move on?
*I wish I could go back to freshman me and tell myself to stop being so goddamn dramatic. I'd shake her and tell her to be happy because of what she has in her future. I'd tell bee what's coming. I'd tell her you'll be happy and just give it time. I'd tell her to wait for your forever. *
YOU ARE READING
A Journey Through Love
NonfiksiTwo really short pages. One from years ago. One from today. A lot has changed. But one thing is still consistent. I still know how to fall in love.
