WAR PRISONER

War Prisoner Chapter 61

Author: 梨花烟雨(Li Hua Yan Yu) /Lê Hoa Yên Vũ

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War Prisoner Chapter 61

To see Wanyan Xu like that shocked Su Yi. Suddenly, Wanyan Xu rushed over to Su Yi, grabbing him hard with his large hands. His eyes were totally bloodshot as he said vehemently, with fury etched into each distinct word that he uttered: "You only have eyes for your people, no matter the occasion, they are all you are concerned about. What about me [1]? Have you ever considered my feelings at all? Even if only a little bit, even if it was only for the same amount of time as it would take for you to snap your fingers, have you ever spared a thought for how much heartache you have put me through? Your people are perfectly fine, but I am about to die from the pain, do you know that? Sometimes, I really wish that I could die immediately, it's fine even if it means that I will be called incompetent, even if they call me weak it would be worth it. To die just like that would be better than having to endure this kind of pain. But I can't die; the people, Shuo Er, Mother Empress and... and you... no matter who it is, I have to live on for your sakes. You can rest assured that I won't take action against your people because I want you to continue living. I want you to live on with misery, humiliation and heartache as your companions. If I hurt a minute, then you shall hurt for ten. Su Yi, since you already hate me, then I'll let you hate me to the utmost."

Su Yi looked at him mutely; his shoulders were being clutched by Wanyan Xu with almost crushing force, as if he wished to transmit all the hatred he felt to Su Yi's body through his pair of hands. His shoulder blade felt a fiery pain as if it had been shattered, but when compared to the anguish Su Yi felt in his heart, that physical pain faded into insignificance.

For a spell, the two stood there in silence, face to face, looking into each other's eyes but unfortunately both of them were circumspect, refusing to let any hint of their true feelings show in their eyes. At length, Wanyan Xu suddenly released Su Yi. He was reeling and stumbling as he backed away from Su Yi, when he reached the door, he gave a couple of acrid laughs and muttered, as if speaking to himself: "That's right, hate... only hate... is the feeling that ought to exist between the both of us." With that said, he turned his back to Su Yi and walked away with determined steps.

Only when Su Yi could be sure that he had already gone far away, did he finally give in to his despair and let his whole body collapse lifelessly onto the bed. He sorely wanted to have a bout of hearty, unrestrained, ugly crying; to find a release for all the burdens, pains and injustices he carried in his heart through his tears. But after a few whimpers, he found that he couldn't shed even a single tear. He laughed sardonically at himself, perhaps his sins had been so contemptible that even Heaven could not forgive him and had gone as far as to revoke the one freedom he thought he had left.

"Wanyan Xu, I'm sorry." Even after the incapacitating agony in his heart had passed, he found that this was the only thing he could say. Su Yi closed his eyes, and resigned himself to another night troubled with dark and harrowing dreams.

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"Ah Crown Prince, we had better go back. The weather is so cold yet you are unwilling to put on a cloak. If you should catch a cold, your subject cannot answer for it." At the rockery by the edge of the Imperial Lake, Xiao Yan was trying to advise his master. With the solemn look he wore on his face, he seemed to be like a little adult.

Wanyan Shuo gave a stubborn "humph" and said: "Xiao Yan, you are getting more and more annoying. So long-winded and nagging, just like an old granny. You should be careful not to provoke me, lest I tell Imperial Father to dismiss you. Hmm, I'll make up more details too, and say that you always complain to Official Yue about me, that as a subordinate you do not respect your superiors, and that you specialize in hurting my pride. He he, let's see if your father will give you a thrashing or not if he hears of this." When he finished, he saw that Xiao Yan's face had flushed a bright red and could not help but to burst out in hearty laughs.