I cannot drop a spoon or step on
a creaky step without
apologizing.
loud voices still trigger
panic attacks, and my hands
shake during scary movies.
i sleep with the door locked
curled as closely to the
wall as possible.
when i say i'm sorry, it still feels
like please don't hurt me
i can't stop the voices
that constantly scream
how wicked and usless
my existence is.
