i cannot drop a spoon or step on
a creaky step without
apologizing.
loud voices still trigger
panic attacks, and my hands
shake during scary movies.
i sleep with the door locked
curled in my closet
with as much clothes possible
when i say i'm sorry, it still feels
like please don't hurt me.
i can't stop the voices
that constantly scream
how wicked and useless
my existence really is.
a/n ; support national child abuse prevention, pls.
