My Depression and Suicide poems

20.)

No
I'm not okay
I'm never okay
He lies and hurts me everyday
He waits and waits for that day
That day that I die and fade away
Though for you all i have to stay
I still could commit suicide someday
He judges my mood, my face, the way I sway
He secretly judges me because I'm gay
Though to myself I swear someday
Someday I'll let myself be truly okay
But it'll be years before he goes his own way...