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Brendon's Notes [Bonus]

I started with this as the Epilogue, but it didn't seem right. So, this is just like a bonus chapter or an alternative to Brendon's suicide note, I guess? And a little thank you to brokentruce for helping me come up with ideas for these! Still a little triggering, but people never pay attention to warnings because half of you freaked the fuck out and one person even threatened me, so yeah. Half of these are short and poorly written, as I had multiple things happening or just couldn't think of anything. Have fun, this made me cry.

As it turns out, Brendon had written much, much more than three sentences to Ryan. When the Boyd searched his room, he found a load of letters, hidden throughout the room. Boyd had found a longer note for Ryan, even. Some were under the bed, some were in the closet, and some were even in Brendon's underwear drawer. They got passed out to their respective readers, each crying or sniffling as they relived the funeral.

Ryan

Do you remember when we were sat on the coast and you said you were going to marry me one day? Do you remember how ecstatic I was? I remember well. And I'm sorry I stole that dream from you. And I'm sorry I made you worry too much. I had to, Ry. I saw him everywhere, even if I was just staying in my room. He'd pop up without a moment's notice. I love you, and I hope you know that, but I hope you move on. I hope you get a better life without me. I don't want to be the guy stealing your life away. So just forget.

Steven

I know you're confused. You have a tendency to be. Hopefully, you won't ever figure out why. I don't want you and the others to know. And please don't think this is a trust thing. It's really not. You're like my brother, Steven, which is exactly why I don't want you knowing.

Tyler and Josh

I'm not too sure what you did when you got the news. You might've flown out, but it's possible you didn't have the money. You might not even get this note, but I hope you do. I hope twenty one pilots will thrive and become even more popular than it already is. You both deserve it.

Jack and Erin

Hey guys, yesterday I asked you...

I'm just messing with you. Erin, I hope your family accepted you coming out. Anyway, I hope you live your lives to the fullest. Don't get sidetracked on the little things. Don't get too down when something bad happens. You have each other, you'll tough it out.

Troye

As I sit here in the dark, I remember all the times you tried to coax me out of the room. Whether it be with food, or the promise of going to a studio, you always tried, even when my own parents gave up after a while. You're an amazing person, Troye. I hope you know that, really I do.

Connor

Before I left, I overheard you talking about Troye. It sounds like love, Connor. The way you look at him, the way he looks at you, and even how you speak to each other. I know what your planning. I hope he takes it well. If so, I'll be at the wedding in spirit.

Spencer

I'm sorry for taking away your dream of starting a band together. I know you really wanted to be a drummer, I know you wanted to travel the country and maybe even the world, and I know you wanted to make music people could relate to. And you still can. You can be a drummer or a guitarist or whatever you want, Spencer. Just because I'm gone doesn't mean your dreams have to be. Live on Spencer. For me.

Mom

I love you, Mom. Even though we've had our fair share of fights and arguments, you'd always come up to my room to apologize or explain yourself so I could apologize. And thank you for accepting me, even when Dad really didn't. It means a lot, Mom. Don't get hung up on me. Focus on Jessie, she's still young, and doesn't know what's going on.

Dad

Why didn't you just deal with the fact I was gay? Mom dealt with it perfectly fine, why couldn't you? It's not like it hurt you in any way. You may have acted when people were over, you may have put on a fake facade, but once they left you argued and punched and kicked and screamed. Like a toddler not getting their way. I still have bruises you know. Do you even care that I'm dead? Or are you celebrating? Most likely the latter.

Natalie

I know you don't really know why, or when, or how, or whatever. It's not important right now. I hope you can gather the confidence to tell Steven you prefer Natalie to Max. It might take you a little while, or a few surgeries, but you will be comfortable in your skin one day. You'll be happy, Nat. I just hope that day comes soon.

Jessica

You must've been pretty confused when Mommy came and picked you up early, huh? I know you can't read yet, and you don't really know what's happened, but remember that your big brother will always be watching over you. Like an angel. I'll be your guardian angel, Jessie.

Dallon

I think it's safe to say that you haven't found out yet. The school hasn't said anything and probably won't. But it's okay. Most people who know what went down will blame you, and they should, but it wasn't fully your fault. You kicked it off, but you didn't do all the work. It's mainly my head and how it functions. Seeing you everywhere I go because of my mind being scared. I couldn't handle that forever. The police don't know about this either, so you're basically in the clear. I'm ashamed and disappointed. You used to be a good guy. How did that change? Why did that change? What the hell happened to you, Dallon?