This was supposed to be the happiest day of my life and it was going that way...that's until we got to the house we would soon make our home and raise a family in but how can I do that when he won't even touch me? After we went into our room and he told me he was going to go change that gave me the chance to take off my dress and show him the lingerie Brie helped me pick it out being that she became a wife before me she knew more about this than I did.
Once the dress was completely off I fixed my hair a bit and laid on the bed nervously waiting for him to come out and make me a woman.
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I saw him look me up and down and I began to feel those butterflies I've felt them since the first time we have kissed and I loved them just like I love him I know it seems weird being that I only just met him but I'm married to him and I'm going to love him forever he's sweet, kind and so caring he was there for me when my grandpa died and he has been such a gentlemen how can someone not love that?
When he told me he was going into the other room to sleep it crushed me was I not good enough for him? How could he act like all this was fine this whole time. He could have told me his true feelings about this and I would know what to expect and I wouldn't be making a fool of myself I wouldn't be begging him to make love to me so that I could have his baby to provide a next generation for our families what will they all think of me when I don't get pregnant soon? My sister got pregnant fast and is going to have her baby what will they think of me and my marriage.
John kept pushing me away and I actually fell on my ass I couldn't get up as he looked down at me I knew I was a complete fool but what could I do I fell in love with him at first kiss I thought that he at least felt something but I guess not I was wrong now what?
Once he left the room I broke down crying I couldn't believe he was doing this too me. On all nights he needed to do this today. I finally was able to get up and lay back in bed but that didn't stop the crying, the hurt and the humiliation I felt. Nothing could change how tonight went but I won't allow it to happen again my marriage will not be a joke I will not be the laughing stock of this town and John will give me the baby I deserve wether he likes it or not. I just wish he would do it on his own terms.
I cried myself to sleep that night I didn't know what to do next maybe tomorrow things will be better.
The Next Day..
I was woken up when I heard the shower turn on I slowly got up and saw that John was in there he looked so damn sexy I couldn't help myself I got out of the teddy I was wearing and made my way into the shower the warm water hit my body as my hands reached for his back I grabbed on to his shoulder and began to massaged them he didn't protest or do anything about it when he turned around I didn't waist anytime I grabbed his face and kissed him he didn't stop me he actually picked me I wrapped my legs around his waist as we walked out of the shower and went into the bed room.
Next thing I knew I was being pushed on to the bed but he wasn't on me anymore he stopped kissing me and he looked mad.
"I told you I want nothing to do with you, out there I'll be the perfect husband but in here I'm nothing to you are we understand?" He said to me all I could do was nod and hold back the tears that we're starting to burn up in my eyes.
He walked back inside and locked the door I broke down again I just don't think I can do this.
I grabbed some clothes and heard to another bathroom to shower even though most of my shampoos and conditioners are in that bathroom I know I really won't be showering I just need a place to cry.
After I felt ready to face him I got out, got dressed I looked on the mirror and looked at the beginning of the rest of my horrible marriage.
I walked down stairs and saw that he was making breakfast I passed him and grabbed a water bottle.
"You hungry." He said making me face him.
"No." I said closing the fridge and walking to the table.
"Are you sure I haven't seen you eat since last night." He said insisting.
"I said I'm fine God." I said getting up from the table and heading outside I don't understand why he cares so much if he just said he didn't care about this marriage.
I decided to go for a jog around the lake just to be away from here I jogged around for about an hour before I decided to go back in and shower again and get ready Brianna was coming over today so that I could take her to an ultrasound appointment her baby is due next month and I am so excited to be an aunt because the way things are looking I don't think I'll ever be a mother.
Once I was finished getting ready I heard the door so I ran down to open it she came in and we sat on the couch I wasn't planning on saying anything to anyone but once I saw Brianna I just felt the urge to cry and have her hug me.
"Coco what's wrong?" She said as I laid my head on her lap.
"John and I didn't have sex last night he doesn't love me." I said beginning to ball.
"Oh sweetie I'm sure that's not true I mean what if he just couldn't get it up and he was embarrassed." She said letting out a small giggle.
"No I tried this morning to but he won't touch me." I said getting up to wipe away my tears.
"So what are you going to do?" She said rubbing my back.
"I don't know I love him Brianna I really do."'I said sitting back.
"Well you know you can always divorce him plus you know that daddy made his family sign that contract so he has a lot to loose if he lets you go." She said smirking.
"I know but I want to make things works." I said.
"Well just know that you can divorce him and well you already know what will happen especially if he's a horrible husband daddy will make you divorce him." Brianna said.
John's Pov
I heard the door bell ring and I went to go see who it was and I saw that it was Brianna, Nicole let her in I was walking back from the kitchen when I heard them talking about me, and Brianna said those magical words.
"If he's a horrible husband you can divorce him and daddy won't be mad." She said to Nicole who looked like a sobbing mess.
"I know okay I know." She said I left immediately they began to say something about a contract but at this point I didn't care.
I will be the most horrible husband ever and I'll have my freedom back.
