i know im venting a lot i just
i don't know anymore i feel so worthless and i feel like im better off fucking dead. im alwaus fucking up friendships and my friends are sad and im terrible at helping them and they mean so much to me i can't loose them. my brother has gone from verbally abusive to physically abusive, im getting back into old bad habits, my grades are slipping, and everything is happening too quickly for me to grasp and its spiraling out of control i feel like walls are closing in on me and i can't do this anymore i hate feeling like this i
fuck please just drag me into a dark alley and fucking kill me
