My strength ? you.

prologue

I was staring into space, when I heard My name called.
<<Ilenia! Are you there? Listen to me?>>
Said Roberta. I said her yes.
Really no, I was not listening. I was absorbed in my thoughts , in my doubts about my insecurities.
Roberta did not notice my mood and kept talking. She did not know what I was ill, or at least,she know only a one part of how things were going really.
<<Oh,are you okay?>> she ask me.
<<Sure>> I made a fake smile. I just wanted to cry.
<<It doesn't not to seem>>
I looked into her eyes and wept . I just wanted a hug.
<<What happens?>> She said hugghing me.
How do I explain everything I feel ? I would say I'm crazy, because I miss my idol.
I dry the tears.
<<It's nothing>> I fake.
Rather, it was all.
I had an emptiness inside, and the only person able to fill that void was halfway around the world.
<< Don't tell me that it is for her that you're so>> mention a laugh.
She laugh of me? Or the fact that I needed her ? Miss Lopez ?
She must not react well.
<<Ilenia,do you think that Jennifer cares?She cares money,not fans>>
She knew it was not so. Jennifer was a woman with a big heart, and I had to see it. I needed it, I needed to see her at all costs.
<<You know that it isn't so>> I said.
She look me at she laugh.
<<Watch the reality Ile>> She said.
<<Now I go, my dad it's there.>> She said greeting me and go away.
I went to bed and thought to her words.
perhaps he was right, maybe Jennifer does not really interest fans. I fell asleep full of doubts.