Somebody that I used to know. >>Kellic

Chapter 8

"I pack my bags and say goodbye to my wife for what seems like the millionth time.

They said it gets easier, but they lied. She looks at me and says, "Really, baby, I will be just fine,"
But then she looks away so I don't have to see her cry. And that is when I ask myself:

How am I supposed to be everything they expect me to be when I feel so alone, 'cause I left my heart at home?
She needs me, but I know they need me too. So, God, give me the strength to do what you created me to do.

Really, I'm so thankful for the people I meet, the places I've been and the things I've seen, but when she's not here it doesn't feel like I'm living my dream. I know they say that no one is perfect, but I swear she's perfect for me and that makes it so much harder to leave.

How am I supposed to be everything they expect me to be when I feel so alone, 'cause I left my heart at home?
She needs me, but I know they need me too. So, God, give me the strength to do what you created me to do."

Matty always had a beautiful voice. He used to sing to me when we were together. We were so annoying back then. I remember we used to pretend we were magical wizards who could kill someone with their voice, so we would sing the name of someone we hate and hope that they die. Of course it never worked but it was funny and it still kinda is. I got so lost in my thoughts, I forgot it was my part in the song. That was until Matty shot me a look telling me to sing.

  "If you miss me, I'm just a phone call away. 

Please be strong, be strong for me. 

I need you to show me how to change the inside of me. For my heart, for their sake. Be strong, be strong for me!"

I was a little shaky on the first line, but as soon as I closed me eyes and got comfortable with the song, I got more into it. I looked out into the crowd, they looked really happy but also confused. Maybe because it was my singing  or maybe it was because they didn't recognize the song.

The song ended shortly after that and I felt a seance of anxiety. Why? Because what if Oli didn't like it? Or what if someone in the crowd didn't like it and they confronted me about it? I'm not very good in those types of situations. I was once again knocked out of my thoughts by someone I really did not want to see.

"You were amazing up there." Vic said, making me blush.

"Thank you?" It came out more like a question than a statement.

"You're welcome." He chuckled. "So how have you been?" His face suddenly went all serious.

"Um.. I've been good. Great, even." I said. If I said it was awkward, that would be an understatement . "How have you been?" I added.

"I've been good." He smiled. He brushed his bangs out of his eyes and that's when I saw a ring.

"You're married?" I questioned.

"Oh, yeah. Me and Beau got married about 2 years after the um.. breakup." The mention of Beau's name made me feel physically sick. Vic and Beau are married? I wonder if he knows what he did to my parents? Or our relationship for that matter. I don't know and I honestly don't want to find out.

"Beau? Y-You married Beau?" I was beginning to feel nervous all over again. Seriously, what the fuck is wrong with me? Just the thought of running into him while I'm here makes me want to run and hide, which I could do but I have to be on stage everyday.

"Yeah. He's around here somewhere. I'm sure he'd love to see you again." He began looking around around frantically for that piece of shit. 

"Oh no, it's okay. I have to get back to Oli anyways. Maybe another time." I started to turn around and make a run for it, but Vic grabbed my wrist, turning me around towards him.

"Okay, but can we talk later? I think we both need a little closure on what happened." No. Is what I wanted to say. A part of me was thinking it was a really bad Idea because I know Oli would be very mad, and there would be hell to pay. But the look in his eyes told me that he really needed this, which is why I agreed.

I let out a long sigh "I guess I owe it to the both of us. When and where?" I asked.

"Tomorrow, after we get to the new venue. Maybe we can get coffee?" He asked, hopefully.

"Sure, I guess just text me when you wanna meet up." I said with a worried expression. I reached over towards a nearby clipboard with a pen attached to it. I wrote my number on a piece of paper and handed it to him. Neither of us said anything as we walked away from each other as if this conversation never happened. I'm gonna need some serious help from Jenna, even if that means telling her what really happened.

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"He did what?!" Jenna yelled. I just got done telling her what happened with Beau. I asked her to come with me tomorrow and she was asking all these questions as to why, so I just had to tell her. She has always wondered why Vic and I broke up, and I told her that I just didn't feel the same way about him but now she knows the truth.

"Jenna, calm down. It's seriously not a big deal now. It's in the past and I got over it." I explained to her, hoping she wont wake up the others. I'm not even sure what time it is, maybe a little past 1 Am. 

"Not a big deal?!" She yelled,once again. "Kellin, Beau almost killed your fucking parents! And over what? Some stupid boy, that he's now married to! He ruined yours and Vic's relationship. How the hell are you so calm about this?!"

"Jenna. Shut the fuck up before you wake up the others. Now sit down and listen to me for once." She nodded her head quickly, sitting down and listening. "Now, this is something that happened over 3 years ago. I'm happy with Oliver, and Vic's happy with Beau. And who am I to stand in front of their happiness? Yes, Beau ruined my relationship with Vic, but if it wasn't for Beau nothing would have turned out like this. I wouldn't have met Oli, moved into our loft with my 3 best friends, or be the happy person I am now. Everything would be different if Vic wasn't married to Beau. I would tell him what he did, but I'm not as much of a monster as he is to ruin other peoples relationships. Now don't get me wrong, I still fucking hate Beau,more than anything, but I still care about Vic. That's the only reason I'm doing this." She didn't say anything to that, which I didn't expect her to. "Now, please help me figure out what I'm going to tell him." I pleaded with her, to which she finally gave into.

Now here comes the hard part.

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