Jalal's Diary

Jalal's Diary : Part 6

Hi Diary!

I have been thinking a lot these days. Especially after yesterday's incident. It seems something so unreal and hard to believe, though it is all true.

You know, from the day I have been an emperor, thinking about some normal human emotions has been a rarity for me. Or you can simply say, I haven't experienced something which can be so deep...so strange...so... -I don't know what-, lately.

As a child, I was a normal human being, who could cry and smile and laugh at little things. Slowly...the realization of life made me different. The acknowledgement of the fact that I am not supposed to be a common man... turned me gradually...into an indifferent person. One who can handle everything... with minimal display of his own feelings.

I don't know what's making me think so much today...

Maybe it is the different atmosphere of Amer. Or maybe, it's the different ME.

Can just seeing someone change a person so much? Maybe she's not just someone. Maybe...maybe she's my destiny too...just the way I am hers. I wonder what she's thinking about me right now? A mysterious reflection in the sacred waters...or more than just that?

The entire night these ever complicated thoughts kept clouding my mind now and then. And on top of them...a myriad of strange questions. A moment where time seemed still... Fluttering of the non-existent heart...the restlessness...the urge to see her again...to make her mine... Is it really me?

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As the night ended, so did the web of thoughts. If not ceased, it did lessen a bit.

But one thing was still there...the wish to experience that moment again, to see her once more. I have said this before...but it doesn't seem like it's me who's wanting or doing so. An invisible energy seems to be working upon me.

Okay, okay I know I sound crazy. But I bet you would act like one too, if such was your case.

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I was off to the Amer Fort, in between the crowd which was their to cheer the prince, Suryabhan Singh. Remember I told you about him...one of the many admirers of Jodha?

And there she was, looking as perfect as ever. Her smile is...simply beautiful. Enough to lift anyone's mood!

But soon after, I spotted Raja Suryabhan Singh entering the fort, his horse dragging someone inside. And to my horror, it was Abdul.

Now Abdul is another unique personality. He denied to come here with me, and now here he is, all captured and defeated! Oh God...what should I do with him?! He probably was too worried about me. Only if he had believed his Jalal enough to know that he won't die so easily. Anyway... he cares for me, after all. A rare species, in this respect.

But these were all after-thoughts. I had to do something at that moment. They were going to kill him right there. Of course they would not have been able to, since I was there.

I pulled out my dagger, slowly making my way towards Abdul.

But, I did not get a chance to use it. The sword advancing towards Abdul was stopped by Jodha.

As most of the crowd looked at her in awe, including me, she began. Her argument was that since it was the auspicious festival of gangaur, and he was a disabled person, it was against their Rajput valor to kill him.

Now, I'm seriously impressed with this girl. Not that I agree with her logic, for I would have killed a traitor without a second thought had I been in her place! But then, she's different, completely different. And the primary difference being, she most likely has a heart. Somehow, her smile reflects her heart. It seems I have known her for ages...though it is only the second time I've had a mere glance at her. Strange, but all the more true!