I don't even know how this happened, how Abbie and Hannah ended up in our group, slowly expanding the numbers. Abby and Hannah had kind of, not only grown close but they had actually official said they were going out and I am happy for them honest, but I am also extremely jealous. I must clarify Abby is my best friend and I love her like crazy, she's amazing. Abbie on the other hand, a very gorgeous girl with a rather bubbly personality, is yes a friend but she just joined our group, along with Hannah, and I don't feel close enough with her yet, so the confusion is cleared, there se two of them.
Anyway back to Abby and Hannah, I've gotten so close to Hannah too recently and we are really good friends. Maybe it helps that she is with my best friend, maybe it makes it easier. I'm happy we are like this now, I have a lot of new interests that I didn't entirely have before, for example I wouldn't have shipped Frerard as much as I do, if I would've at all.
Okay another thing to clarify, Frerard is a ship name for Gerard Way and Frank Iero, singer and guitarist from My Chemical Romance, I have loved that band since my first year of high school and I am now in my second.
So yes, those girls coming into my life is actually really great, I am so happy and I don't know what it could have been like but I don't want to know.
But for now we should just stick to how it is going, I don't want to think about any of the possibilities, if thins had happened the way I wanted a thousand times before, then this life would be possible and it may have been good but it wouldn't be the same. I still want some of those things though, looking back I realise that I still don't mind those things and if I could, I would take the opportunity.
Yes, I'd still go with Kerr.
Yes, I'd still go with a thousand other guys.
Yes, I'd still listen to all that music I listened to before and sing along (listen to it against my will anyway).
Yes, I would do all of these things, I would do probably about anything that I once would've, I still wanted it at one point and I can still see why.
But there are many things that I'm not sure about. Like a few months ago, my Abby text me, I was out a walk with Jennifer (my cousin) and I got a text from her, and we started a normal conversation. She asked me if she could tell me something and of course she could, she can always tell me anything. She told me she thought she might be bisexual and my reply was that I thought I might be too, and I still don't know but I've dismissed it now.
I probably will never be and I was just thinking about it because she said that, which its obvious she is, I mean she's been with Hannah a little while now. I don't think I could ever be with a girl, I don't know if I could ever actually be in a relationship at all but that's besides the point.
All I know is that I, Kimberly, have a pretty amazing life right now, I don't know how I was lucky enough to have it, but I am so happy.
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I know it's rather like I've just thrown it all together like that and you don't have much to go on (ps sorry it took so long to actually post the first chapter) I just hope you like it and are now intrigued to read more!!!
<3 Kimi!
