Don't Just Stand There

Chapter 4

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Iris' P.O.V

Finally, after all these nights of going to Jitters trying to catch Barry, I did it. I can see that he sees my reflection through the glass window. 

"Hey" I probably should've said more, but oh well. He doesn't respond, just turns around. 

"If you weren't a scientist or a superhero you should be an architect, you are surprisingly great at it." My attempt at small talk didn't work and he still is silent, just staring at me. Maybe I should be be more sincere. 

"When are you coming home? We miss you. I miss you." Still, he doesn't respond. I take a step forward, but he steps back.

 "Look Barry, I've been to the doctor a few times lately and I keep going back. I get medicine for it but----" His eyes seem to go wide with fear.

 "Oh no. I'm not hurt or anything." I reassure him this but he only relaxes, doesn't talk or move.

 "I've been depressed, but the medicine doesn't really work. Everyone thinks it is because of Eddie, but it's not. It's because you left." I thought this would certainly get a word out of him, at least a change in his facial expression. But no, he just stays quiet and stares at me. 

"Look Barry, I'm sorry for everything that happened but, I love you. And not like a best friend or a brother. The way you said you loved me at Christmas. The way I pretended to love Eddie." The last part was only a whisper, but it caught his attention. 

"Ever since first grade I had a crush on you. But then your mom died and you came to ,live me, the time just didn't seem right. Then you left for college, and then you were in a coma." Tears are now freely streaming down my face. Barry still hasn't spoken.

 "When you were in a coma, Eddie was like my replacement Barry. Then you woke up and spent all your time at STAR LABS, with Caitlin. I wasn't ready to let that replacement go. When you told me how you felt at Christmas, I knew I would still get jealous of Caitlin. The same thing with why I acted the way I did with Linda. Which is completely unfair and selfish of me because you were dating someone when I knew you loved me, but I was dating someone when you didn't know I loved you." By this time I'm just about bawling. Yet Barry still hasn't said a word 

"I'm so sorry Barry. I love you." Barry continues to be still and silent, and I can't take it anymore. 

"Say something!"

 Don't just stand there!" Instead of speaking or coming forward, he just zooms out the door. I fall to my knees and let the sobs wrack from my body.

 I feel a gust of wind and someones arms wrapped around me. 

"Barry" I manage to croak out through my tears. He is wearing normal clothes and still fails to speak. Instead he just rubs small circles on my back.

 "Do you still love me?" He doesn't answer and just continues to rubs circles on my back. 

I mean if he is still here then he still loves me.

 Right?