On the Mindless Side

Why do we make mistakes?

ROC'S POV

Sitting in the waiting room... Anxiously awaiting ANY news from the doctors . I wondered what in the world happened to Chloe? I felt a storm of emotion over take my body . A hurricane of thoughts rumbled in my mind. What if she was dead? What if it was my fault ? What if ..... ? I didn't want to think anymore . Minutes passed into hours and I couldn't hold on to my brave calmness . Burying my face into my hands I screamed alarming everyone .

Krissy: roc please! Please relax ! I'm worried too!

Me - It's my fault !

Krissy: no it's not !

I got out of my chair sniffling and gasping in a panic ! I got angry ! I didn't want to calm down! I wanted to be with Chloe and by her side . Then I remembered Lynn . I couldn't do that to Chloe exspecailly not now! I stomped my foot on the ground throw my hands into the air . I put my back against the wall and slid down , shattering into tears.

Tina - it will be ok ...

Krissy - yea ! Chloe's strong !

Me - I know ! I just want to hold her , I wanna say sorry !

The guilt ate me up the most at the thought that ran through my head. What if Chloe died , and I never get to apologize for doing her wrong . I lifted my head to see the doctor walking towards us. We all jumped up in concern . Wondering what the doctor was going to say , I prepared myself for the worst.

Dr.Myers- hello...

Me - spare me the small talk is Chloe ok?

Krissy - sorry for his attitude ...

Tina - what's wrong with Chloe??

Dr.Myers- First we pumped her stomach , and found Nephorayl in there.

Me - what's Nephorayl ?

Dr.Myers- a drug found in abortion pills. It has deadly effects on epileptic people .

Tina - what is a epileptic person ?

Krissy - a person prone to seizures !

Dr.Myers - yes and Chloe is epileptic ! When she came in the Nephorayl had killed half her cells . Including 25% of her brain cells.

Me - is she okk? (Tears welled in my eyes)

Dr.Myers- I'm sorry but we can't stop the remaining Nephorayl , if the drug kills 75% of her brain were going to have to cut off the machines .

Me- meaning?

Krissy - she would die

Tina - oh my god

I lost it ! I ran out the hospital screaming , pounding my fist into myself. I allowed this to happen ! Chloe might die because of me ! But I needed to be strong . I came back into the waiting room and took a seat. Krissy and Tina on each side of me .

Dr.Myers- Chloe has been falling in and out of a comma . You can come see her .

We bolted out our seating and followed the doctor to Chloe's room. In the bed I saw a paler silent girl . She had IV's hooked to her and a breathing tube. I came to her side and held her hand . Whispering I said " I'm sorry baby , I'll do better, please just wake up" . Krissy came over and rubbed my arm . Then walked to the other side of Chloe's bed and held her other hand. I wasn't at peace but I was tired of being sad and crying . I kissed Chloe on the head and left the hospital . I would be back tomorrow with a clear head.

KRISSY'S POV

I sat in Chloe's room thinking. How the hell did Chloe get Nephorayl in her system ? The doctor said it was from abortion pills .... Did Chloe take one ? Was she pregnant with Roc's baby? She must have been. But wait Roc said it was his fault! Maybe he forced her to have an abortion , that's probably why he was acting strange this morning ! He got Chloe pregnant and then made her get an abortion. His ass was going to get it ! I called Prodigy who was at the house and told him to keep Roc home! I left the hospital and explained everything to Tina. When we pulled up to the house we heard arguing .

Princeton - still! You don't know dumb ass!

Prodigy- a child is a gift ! You killed it!!!

Me - what's going on???

Ray - TELL THEM ROC! or should I cause you don't believe in telling people' shit!

Tina - some body speak!!!

Roc- it's my fault Chloe's in a comma ! I feed her a plan b pill without her knowing . I'm sorry

Me - WTF!!! WHY WOULD YOU DO THAT? I swear your such an asshole ! You killed your own child!

Me- NO I DIDNT! There is no way to know of there was a baby in there in the first place !

Krissy- oh so were going to lose Chloe over nothing ?

Tina - real smart fuck tard !

Roc punched the wall creating a massive hole. And walked up to his room and slamming the door. Screaming "IT DIDN'T KILL MY CHILD!AND I DIDN'T CAUSE CHLOE'S COMMA!"