An Unbreakable Love

Chapter 9: What Have I Done ?

* Ian's POV *
I feel like killing myself now. I don't know what to do. I don't want to marry Nikki, but she is pregnant with my child. I have to be in my child's life. I want the best for my child, and I want it to grow up with a father figure in his or her life. I just have this weird feeling I can't shake. I feel like I did a huge mistake. What have I done?

It's 2:30 a.m, and I can't sleep. Just like every other night after I proposed to Nikki. Every time I close my eyes I see Nina's reaction after Nikki and I announced that we are getting married and we have a child on the way. It hurt me seeing her like that, I wanted to comfort her and tell that the only reason I'm marrying Nikki is because of my unborn child.

Suddenly my alarm went off. Wow that was fast it's already 6:00 a.m. I got up and did my daily routine and went to set.

Time went by very fast. I finished my scenes for the day. It was just like any other day but this time Nina is not here. It's boring now. Nina was the prankster on set. She would prank all of the cast , but now that she is not here this place is so dull and so is my heart.

I walked into Paul's room and saw him talking on the phone with someone, he looks nervous about something . I wonder what has gotten him so nervous. He got off his phone and I went over to him.
"Hey buddy, what has gotten you so nervous all day." I asked
"W...who said I'm nervous, I'm not nervous. I'm totally fine." He said in one breath

"You ARE nervous, so are you going to tell me why you're nervous?"
It took him some time, before he took a deep breath in and out.
"I'm proposing to phoebe tonight and I'm scared she might say no" he said slowly, once he finished I burst out laughing. He looked at me confusingly.
"Are you kidding me? I've seen the way she looks at you, she loves you so much, man. I know it. What took you so long?"

"It's funny how you and Nina said the same thing about the way she looks at me, but do you really think so?" He asked and I nodded.
"Wait wait what?!" I said after a moment. "Nina knows about this... And I thought I would be the first to know about everything." I said jokingly. Just be mentioning Nina I can't help, but think what she might be doing. I know she left the vampire diaries and she will be coming back for the series finale, but I still can't get her out of my head.

"Oh speaking of Nina... She ... She " Paul stuttered. What's wrong with her? Is she fine? Is she in trouble?
" Paul what happened to Nina. Is she okay?" I said concerned.
"She is fine. There's nothing wrong, but..." He went over his drawer and took out an envelope. "She left, Ian" he said turning back to me "and she asked me if I can give this to you" he said handing the envelope.
What ? No Nina can't leave. Why didn't she tell me? Why didn't she say goodbye? 

My mind was clouded with all these questions.
"Where did she go? What didn't she say goodbye? She hates me, right? She couldn't stand me that's why she left the vampire diaries and that's why she left to God know where, right ?" By the time I finished talking, tears were pouring down my face.

"Read the letter inside it, maybe it has all the answers" Paul said "I will leave you alone to read it and I'm going to go home and prepare my plan for proposing to phoebe, wish me luck"
"Good luck, man. I know she will say yes."
"Thanks and I hope so." and with that Paul left, and I'm all alone with the envelope in my hands.

I nervously opened the envelope and took out the letter inside it. And started reading it .

Dear Ian,
By the time you read this, I will be long gone. You're probably asking I didn't say goodbye to you. Well this letter is a goodbye letter. I chose to write a letter over saying it in person because I know It will unbearable to see the pain in your eyes.

Saying goodbye to you is the hardest thing I have done in my life. You will always be in my heart. I can never love someone as much as I love you. Yes, I love you Ian, I never stopped, and Never will. I never got the chance to thank you for everything you have done to me. So thank you for saving me from Derek. Thank you for the most amazing six years of my life. In these six years, dating or not, you have been with me through everything, and I love you for that.

I left because I didn't want to come between your relationship with Nikki, and because I couldn't handle the seeing you with Nikki.

And lastly, congratulations on the engagement and the baby. I'm happy for you, Ian. I'm truly happy for you. I hope you have an amazing life with Nikki and your child. I know you've always dreamed of having a child and I'm sorry I couldn't give you that.

I love you Ian.
You will always remain in my heart
Love, Nina.

She loves me. That's the first thing that came to my mind after I finished reading the letter. I can't believe it. she loves me but she doesn't know I love her back. How am I going to tell her that I love her when I don't know where the hell is she.

I ran my hands through my messy hair, and took a deep breath. I don't know what to do. I don't want to go home. It doesn't even feel like home, but I know a place that feels like home. And I feeling like going there now. I texted Nikki telling her that I'm spending the night with the guys. Then I went to my car and drove off to the apartment Nina and I shared. After we broke up I was suppose to sell it but I couldn't. We shared a lot of memories there, and I couldn't get rid of it that easily.

I parked my car outside the house and got the house keys out of the car's glove box. I kept it there the whole time, because I knew there would be time where I would want to come back here. As I stepped out of the car, I saw that the living room lights are on. I opened the door and I went in. The first thing I saw was a traveling bag on the floor and the keys on the table next to it. I knew to who that bag belonged to. The next thing I know I was looking all over the house, until I suddenly stopped and looked at her. My heart was beating faster than the wheels of a speeding car.

She is here...
And I am never letting her go.
"Nina ..." I said not believing my eyes.

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Cliffhanger!!!!
Sorry for the late update, I really am. I hope you like this chapter. I have no idea what to do next chapter, please help me. Sorry for the spelling and grammatical errors. Please comment and vote for this chapter if you liked it. I love you all.
Love,
Criminal Ray