Vapor (Calum Hood AU)

Void

I lay on my temporary bedroom floor, Getting lost in my messed up head as usual until a knock interrupted, "Hood. Your friend is here again." The guard announced, He opened the door and waited for me to stand which I didn't do so, "Are you going to meet up with your visitor or no?" He asked while looking down at me, I didn't reply as he closed the door again.

Few minutes later he opened it again, "He wants to talk to you, It's important." He announced, I grunted and stood up following his lead, I saw Luke sitting by the empty table in the visitor's area waiting for me, I sighed and sat with him. "Hey Buddy, How are you?" Luke was the only one stable enougj to see me in this situation, My parents rarely visited since it only ends up with them crying, So does Michael. My childhood friend, I only met Luke when I was around 15 already but Michael was there ever since which I understand why he isn't tough enough to face me while I'm fully fucked up.

"I'm fine." I said the two words with my usual dry tone, Because, It's a fucking lie.
Every damn person suffering my condition will use that lie. Luke just nodded knowing what I actually felt, Which is shit. "Look, Buddy, I talked to Michael and he's still not ready to talk to you yet but he did ask me to tell you that he misses you awfully." Luke stated, I just shrugged, I'm used to the "I miss you" phrase. I miss myself aswell, But the voices took over, I've kept them for so long under cages and finally they escaped and now I'm the trapped one.

A mood swing kicked in and I grabbed Luke's collar, Luke was shocked although he tried to calm himself since he is used to this sudden violent outburts I get. "Cal, Relax, I understand buddy, It doesn't have to be like this." Luke tried to hushed me, The guard quickly pulled us apart and Luke stopped him telling him he can handle me.

"No! Luke! Can't you see?! Do I look fucking okay to you? I'm fucked man! I'm fucked! I don't know what to do!" I started crying, I held my face and sobbed loudly, Luke rushed to sit on the chair beside me and quickly hugged my quivering body. "Calum, Once in awhile it's better for you to tell me everything, I'm here buddy." Luke assured, "I don't know Luke, I don't understand how I feel, One day I feel happy the other day I feel weak and defeated, I don't understand. I don't know why, Tell me Luke! Why?!" I looked at him and held his shirt again, Luke didn't dare budge he only looked me right in my eyes challenging me to open up more, Somehow it gave me a sense of peace, But I doubt I'll be ever in peace again.

"Buddy, Tell me. Look at me. Show me what you feel, I'm not leaving you." Luke held me aswell, My crying was replaced with confusion right away, I held my head since it hurt so much, I winced at the sudden pain and Luke asked me what was going on, "Tell me Luke, What's wrong with me?" I asked looking at him while ignoring the pain, "Everything is wrong in this world we live on Buddy, I'm just as fucked as you but I deal with it better than you do, Other people just deals shis differently you know? Others crack others stays the same, Nothing in the world today is alright, Calum, You're not okay, You're entertaining the demons that set you here in the first place, Open your mind for us buddy, Please." Luke talked me through, I shook my head and scoffed at his statement.

"Trust me, My lunacy is way out of hand to be just another fucked up thing in this world." I calmed down again, Luke released his hold on my shirt and shook his head aswell, "Then lucky you, I'm here to help remove that insanity." Luke said, "Goodluck with that." I then stood up to leave before Luke held my hand, "Calum, Please talk me through this!" Luke suddenyl belt out no longer handling it, He was desperate for answers, Just like me.

"I'll talk you through it." I sat back down again, "Madness is like another means to an end, The opposite magnet, It only needs to get closer to trigger it to go with it. I'm the other magnet Luke, I've caved in, I got closer to madness then I intended to, I'm stuck with it."