Thug Life

Chapter 17

- 3 Weeks Later -

Today was going to be my leaving day. I was ready to get out of this hospital. I felt smothered, overwhelmed and everything felt so weird.

" Ready to go, sweetie ? " My mother asked. I nod and put my bags on my bed. As I nod a sharp pain went through my head. I held it. " Are you okay ?! " She came to my side.

" Im fine ma. " I say.

Why Was this happening to me ?

" Can we just go now ? " I asked. I had a bit of an attitude. I was fustrated and upset. Tired. Confused and everything. The door opened. My ' father ' the twins and Nisa came in.

I really didnt want to talk to anyone or see anyone right now with this state I was in. I grabbed my bags and walked out past everyone. I looked around the hospital as I walked out. I knew what car my mother drove. A Rover...right. I stepped outside and let the warm air hit my face. My hair started to blow in the wind.

The sun was about to set. I smiled as I was able to take in all the fresh air. It felt so good outside.

" Issy are you okay ? " Lord my mother was smothering.

" fine..im ready to go home " I say looking up at the sky with a smile. She put her hand around my shoulder and kissed my cheek. I looked at her. I Didnt think how much she was going through with all of this.

" Everything is going to be fine..We will get though this together " She tells me. I nod.

Not going to cry, Nope. Not again.

" I know...can it just be us. Im just figuring this out. "

" Sure. The car is parked on row R4. Heres the keys. I'll talk to everyone then met you over there " She tells me. I nod and took the keys and walked that way. Not to sound like an asshole or anything...I dont want to be bothered with them right now. This is me trying to learn all over again. Their confusing sometimes.

I walked to the row and hit the unlock the button on the car. A silver rover beeped. I went to it put my things in and got in.

***

We pulled up to the house. To be honest I didnt remember but as I stepped out the car visons of me in this house started to play in my head. It was so fucking weird. I seen me and Nisa sitting on the front lawn chilling. Me cutting the yard while my mother teased and watched. I guess this is the memories the doctor said I " might " get back.

She went and unlocked the door and I walked in. The visons never stopped as I walked through the house touching everything. Everything was playing through my mind. I opened a door. My room. I walked in and looked around the neat room. The pictures on the wall of Trey Songz, my family. Nisa and I. I walked around looking at everything. My room was pink and silver. My bed was filled with bears and things. I walked around to everything.

It was like I was a new born baby home for the first time. Everything was so interesting and true. I sat on my bed then went through the nightstand. I pulled out my diary. Where the hell was a key for something like this. I searched all in the drawer. Under my pillow. I looked down...really ? Right here around my neck. A neckalace shaped like a key. I tried it and it opened.

This would be the best inside look of Isis the old me.

I flipped to a random page.

" To be honest I just think me and Nisa are growing apart. It just isnt the same. Dont get me wrong she is my bestfriend but sometimes a person needs space...dealing with her poblems i never get a chance to deal with my own. I love her but she has her fake as hell moments. I guess being friends..you have to really have your friends back. But sometimes you have to ask yourself.