Our Little Secret

TIPSY

[ALEKS POV]

I woke up to a banging headache, I sat up. I looked around my room but then I realized that the walls looked different, and so did my sheets, I was in James' room. I look to my side and see a shirtless James, sleeping next to me. I panic and try to remember what happened last night.

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[LAST NIGHT]

We drove home in silence, I kept thinking about what happened the other night. James turned on the radio to lighten the mood, but the song only made us feel worse.

'Crosses all over, heavy on your shoulders
The sirens inside you waiting to stepforward
Disturbing silence darkens your sight
We'll cast some light and you'll be alright.'

I turned off the radio. I couldn't take it. I wanted to run, I wanted to scream. I wanted revenge...no that's not it, I wanted an answer. Was last night just a moment of lust or was it all the truth? Hell knows James won't EVER tell me. I need to find a way for him to tell me everything, oh. No, that's to much. Well... I could just get him tipsy, nothing more. We parked in the driveway. Once we walked in Ein jumped at us, she went after James more, of course. "Uh, hey James. Wanna chill and eat pizza?" He looked at me, a bit surprised. "Uh, what for? " he gives me a supicious look. I gave him a sweet innocent smile, "Just us friends, hanging out." He smiled and grabbed his phone, "Hi I would like to order a large pizza." We went into the kitchen and James poured himself some Mt Dew, crap my plan was already failing. I poured some sprite and vodka into my cup. James looked at me. "Oh you're gonna drink alcohol? " I giggled, "Yeah, pizza and beer. It's the best combination!" He put his pop to the side and grabbed a beer, perfect. We sat down on the same couch where I sucked his dick, I got a sick feeling in my stomach. We turned on the TV and put some movies on till the pizza came. We drank what felt like hours, we aren't the lightest drinkers so it took us a while. As James took a bite out of his pizza he looks at me. "Hey Al, did I scare you last night?" I looked at him, we were both a bit tipsy. "Kind of, were you scared? " I asked. He took a sip of my vodka and smiled. "When you left I was, I was worried that you hated me." I gave a small sigh with a smile, "I'm gonna get some water for us, be right back." This is ridiculous, I can't believe I thought this was good idea, I'm such an idiot. I came back to James being on his phone, it looks like he's texting someome. I could test him to see if my plan worked. "Hey um, who ya texting?" He looked up at me, and responded. "Jordan." What? Why Jordan? Did something happened today? "Wh-why? I mean." He sighed and turned his phone off "Idiot, not responding." I sat next to him and gave him his water. "Uh, why do you want to talk to him? " I asked him. He told me that he told Jordan what happened last night, I was furious. "HOW COULD YOU EV-" He cut me off. "I wanted to tell you I'm sorry. But you were gone." He smiled, but I could tell he wasn't happy. I looked at him, "why did you leave me? Why did you hide from me? Why did you make me wait all day just so we can eat pizza and watch TV like nothing happened? But something did happen, I regret it but I dont, because I wanted it. I'm sorry that I was SOOOOOO happy when you kissed me, I was happy when we were making out. I was sad when you ran away, I was sad when you left without saying goodbye, I was sad when you isolated yourself from me." I looked at him. I may have overdone this, I crossed the line and I can't go back. I grabbed his hand and he looked at me. "James...um... I really like you and I really want you...but I'm afraid that you don't like me the same way." He burst out laughing and he grabbed both of my hands tightly. "ALEKS ARE YOU SERIOUS?! AFTER WHAT I JUST TOLD YOU, YOU THINK I DON'T LOVE YOU? DO YOU THINK IT WAS JUST LUST?!" He giggled, I blushed. God did he look beautiful right now. I grabbed his face and kissed him, the taste and smell of vodka made me feel like a badass and I took control. I went on top of him and we started to make out. He started to pull my hair and scratch on my back, fuck it hurts. I groaned, "James why-" I looked at him. He looked messy, but it wasn't bad, it was hot. "Hey Al, let's go up in my room." Oh, oh fuck. "I don't know, I mean-" he cut me off. He put his hand on my chest and pushed slightly for him to sit up. "Aleksandr I'm not that drunk, and neither are you. I want this, you want this. It's going to satisfy us both. I want to have sex with you Aleksandr." He looked at me with a small smile, I smiled back and took his hand. We turned off the TV and put the rest of the pizza away, so Ein wouldn't eat it and shit herself. We walked up to his room and I pushed him on his bed, "Whoa whoa whoa, who said that you were going to be top?" I looked at him and smiled, "We can switch." He blushed and smirked, "I like that idea." He licked his lips. We started to make out again, his hands went up my shirt. I groaned as he scratched my back. "E-eh James, you're into that?" I asked. He smirked, "I'm into a lot of things Aleksandr." He said a bit devious. I blushed and went for his neck, making little hickeys. He moaned and messed with my hair, it felt so good. He pulled my hair hard, making me gasp, he bites at my neck. I huffed, damn if I knew James was like this I would of done this a long time ago. I didn't realize it until I felt him stop, he took my jeans off. My face burned, how the fuck did he even do that without me realizing it!? What the fuck! I watch him throw his jeans to the floor and he smiles at me. He pretty much leads me, he grabs my hand and makes me go on top of him. We stare at each other for a moment then at the same time we went in for a kiss. It was a perfect moment, everything around us was peaceful and quiet. I go up his shirt, staring down at him I realize small things. James yells at me. "STOP STARING AT ME YOU ASSHOLE." He puts his hand over my eyes. I groan "What? What did I do?" I giggled and he put his hands down. He looked a bit annoyed, "You're starting at my stomach." He blushed. I looked at him. "You're insecure about that?" No way. He looked more annoyed, "No, I just. You have a good body and I'm... chubby." I just stared at him, I love his body, why is he so cautions. I pull off my shirt which makes him jump, I made him put his hands on my chest. I see his face turn red as he lowers his hand. "See what I mean. You're body is better than mine." I giggle and squish the fat that was on my stomach, "James, I have fat too, and you shouldn't feel worried about your stomach. I think it's cute" He looked at me, "really? You're not - you're not dicking around right?" He asked a bit suspicious. I went close to his ear "James we're going to have sex, why would I be joking with you right now?" I smirk and I hear him smile. I feel his legs tangle with mine, I kiss his cheek and his neck. He mumbles a few sweet words to me making me blush, "You're so cute" I whisper in his ear. He snorts and laughs and pushes me on the bed, pinning down. I stare up at him with a smirk, he nuzzles into my neck and I feel him pulling down my boxers. I feel a bit nervous, I push him off a bit, he looks confused. "I-i have an idea" fuck my voice cracked, he looked at me "Al if you're nervous we don't have to- AHHH HOLY SHIT, HAH!" I pulled his dick out of his boxers, i didn't look but I could feel that it was WAY bigger than mine. I put them together and started to rub them, he wanted to look down but I told him not to. I put my forehead on his, huffing and moaning. I feel his hand on mine. I look at him, "I can do it...literally I just want to touch your dick." Oh my god. I let him and damn his fucking grip, it felt good. "that-that's good..." I huff and kiss him. He kissed back and went faster, crap at this rate I'm gonna...fuck. Warm white goo went on James' hand, he looks down finally and gasp. "Wow you're so much smaller than me" uhggggggghh asshole, he sees me tense up. "Eh. not that a bad thing!" He giggled and I sighed. He kissed me, that dosent reassure me you fucker, he started to kiss lower until he went to my cock. I shivered, "fuck, fuck, fuck, James wait, hah!" He started licking it and just being a tease. He started to suck and I couldn't take it, I put my hand over my mouth so he wouldn't hear me moan. "Aleksandr, this isn't fun if I don't hear you scream~" This fucker. I put my hand down and huff, it does feel really good. He begins to suck again and he also uses his hand to make more friction happen, it works. I just shiver and moan, man I'm a fucking mess, I never freaked out when someone gives me a blowjob. Maybe because it's James, I did love him for a year and girls never really felt right. I huff loudly and put my hand on his head, making him deep throat. I hear him muffle and I cum deep in his mouth, I see his shoulders jump and he gets up quickly. "Ah! Fuck!" He rubs at his nose, as if my cum went that far. "You could of told me you were going to cum again! Or at least told me you wanted me to deep throat!" I watch him swallow and lick his lips and the tips of his fingers. I fucking broke, I jumped at him and we started to make out. I realized I was completely naked and James wasnt, that's making me feel self cautions. "James, you mind getting naked with me?" I guess he didn't realize I was nude till I said so. He smirked and grabbed my hips and moved his hips. My heart skipped a bit, I moaned loudly, this wasn't even a lot but i made me go crazy. I feel James stop. I look to see what happened and I just see him, staring at me with a smirk. "You're crazy horny Aleksandr" my breath hitches and I grip the bed sheets. He goes down to meet my face and just, stares! I quiver and look away but he grabs my face to look at him. I glare, I've calmed down enough, and I think James realized that. He kissed me and I kissed back, it was extremely sloppy. He got off of me and took what little clothes he had off, I blush as I see his dick. It wasn't as big as I imagined but hell was it big. He layed down and I looked at him, "I'm going first." I looked around the room, "do you have any lube in here?" I would believe he would. He points to his desk near his computer, of course. I grab it and start putting lube on my fingers, I opened his legs and put lube on his entrance, making him shiver. I stick one finger in slowly, I hear him grunt. "Heh yeah, it dosent feel good the first time." Oh fuck, I shouldnt have said that but it was to late."Excuse me what. You've done this before? Who did you do it with?" I knew it. I roll my eyes, "Aleksandr tell me who you did this with or-" fuck you james. "Hey! Ever heard of masturbation before? Yeah! Of course you have!" He looked at me. His cheeks turn a nice hue of pink, "o-oh, pft, heh..." He tries to hide his embarrassment with a smile. My face is burning and I can't take it, I put in another finger. He yelps in pain and grips the bed sheets, once I see him relax I put another one in. He's starting to moan in pleasure so I guess it might be time to go to the next level. I take them out and he looks at me, he sees me put lube on my dick and he yelps."Um, wait...um I mean" I smile at him,"if you're not ready we don't have to." He looked up at me "that's not it, I mean like. Will this be okay with my back?" Oh yeah. I think for a bit, I'm pretty sure it'll be okay, but what if it's not. "James, if it hurts tell me and we can stop, okay?" He nods and he pulls me in. We kiss as I enter, he groans, "f-fuck. Thats, that's really thick..." Oh wow. I laugh, "what? Really?" I smile as he laughs along,"well, yeah." I didn't notice but, James is really fucking tight. It feels fucking great, I start to move my hips slowly. He huffs and scratches my back a bit, I'm starting to like the feeling of it, it exotic. I nuzzle into James' neck and moan, he groans and tells me to go a bit faster. I do what i'm told and go at a medium, I feel him feeling less tight as my shafts enters him more. I start moaning in his ear, he huffs and messes with my hair, I kiss his neck. I hear his moans starting to get louder, I go a little faster, it just feel so fucking good. "Fuck, fuck me Aleksandr i Want you to make me cum." I blushed and went faster, I want him to feel so good, I wanna make him happy. He started to moan louder, he scratched my back and bit my neck. I shivered and pre cum started to leak, "r-really Aleksandr? Already? Twenty minutes in and you're already leaking pre...?" I clicked my tongue and went hard and fast, he yelped. "OW THAT FUCKING HURTS!" oh fuck, "fuck, sorry sorry." He groans and I just stopped to make sure I didn't hurt him, "I'm fine Aleksandr." I sighed, "I should really try to be more qentle" he snorted "NO! Don't do that!" I smiled lightly, "I'll be a bit more gentle, okay?" He smiled but looked annoyed. "Pft, okay" he smiled and told me to keep going. I continued and went faster , fuck it felt great. "You-you gonna cum soon Aleks?" He said softly and moaned. Fuck the way he said that, I yelped an "I love you" and cummed deep inside him. We huffed and i just started to kiss his cheek, he giggled and said if I wanted to go another round. I blushed "um, like you on top of me?" I asked and he smiled and nodded. I chuckled and shruged, "um, I don't know I'm getting kind of-"  he stopped me. "Same, so let's take it a bit slow" he said as he patted to the side next to him. I smiled and layed down beside him, I hear him pour lube on his hands and rubbing it on his cock. I feel a cold wet hand grab my leg and lift it up, I feel his dick head near my hole. I feel like I'm about to explode , I shivered and gripped the bed sheets. He goes in slowly then stops at the head, the fuck I'm not tight. He realized that and jammed himself inside me, I screamed in pleasure. He went fast and hard, making me bury my face in the pillows. I came again and so did he, we huffed and he pulled out and cuddled me.

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[PRESENT]
Fuck, fuck... I fucked James last night. "Mmm...Aleks..? What's wrong?" I hear James' tired voice next to me. I jump and I look at him, he gets up slightly and yelps. "Agh! My fucking back!" I made him lay back down. "James listen, in going to call you off work today so you can rest, okay?" He nodded and smiled, "okay, but I want to be with you" I frowned at him. He noticed that and kissed me, James' please don't kiss me, I already feel guilty enough. "okay, just get me some headache pills before you leave please" I nodded and did so. Once he took the pills he kisses me goodbye as I drove to work. My head hurts and my chest feels like it's going to collapse.

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