Our Little Secret

Out Of Control

{JAMES POV}

I wake up to Ein licking my face "Ohhhh hello Ein!" I say with my little doggy voice, I get up, then remembering the events that happened last night.

"So....goodnight!" Aleks says as he runs up stairs to his room. "A-Aleks!! Wait! come back!" I yell as he closes his door "I'm...sorry..." I sigh as I realize what I done, 'it was his own fault' I think to myself as I buckle my pants. I head up stairs and look at Aleks room door, I felt a sense of fear and anger coming from the room as I frown and go the my room and fall asleep.

I walk to Aleks door and knock softly "Aleks? Are you awake?" I say sweetly as possible. I open the door to see that Aleks wasn't there.... I look out the window and see his car is gone 'I guess he hates me now...'. I text him

Aleks I'm sorry!

No reply. I sigh and get ready for work, I get in my car and drive to the office. I see Aleks's car parked as i get out of my car, "how long has he been here?" I ask myself and look at the time, 1:00 pm. I get in and look for Aleks. "Oh hey James....." I hear Jordan but he sounds....sad.... "We have creature talk in a little so get ready....." He says, slouching and walks to the kitchen. " Da faq? Hordan did something happen?" I ask in concern for my friend "yeah....that my heart has been crushed....." I look at him and think 'Jordan likes someone!?' "Whoa whoa whoa!!! Who are you talking about?" I ask with a questionable look "I...I can't tell you but...heh....this person can be confusing and a jerk at the same time...and the person is just....beautiful..." Jordan says bringing his puppy eyes out as he puts his hands on his cheeks and smiles, I stare at him and think of a person like that. "sounds like Seamus" I say as a joke, but when I see Jordan jump up I give him a 'for real!?' Face. "Okay okay...I love Seamus....he's so...-" he stops as a shade of red comes across his cheeks "sexy, hot, which is it?" He glares at me "I'm not that kind of guy James! I think he's adorable!" He says and slams his hands on the table. I look at him and smile "hey I mean...I might like....well, let me help you with your problem " I say and smile softly "w-well...we were...when you guys left to the movies the other day we....Seamus started flirting on me on our stream...and once we ended it we started to make out.....ALOT..." he blushes and rubs his neck as I look at him intensely "w-wha...how?" He blushes harder "dicksucking" he says quickly. I give a shocked look and rub my arm, "o-oh....well....um....just tell him how you feel! I mean maybe he might feel the same way because well...He started it" I say as Jordan smiles "yeah...yeah! Well maybe when the stream is over! But I gotta think it through, so see ya later James " he says and leaves me alone with my thoughts. I got to Aleks's office door and knock "Aleks? Are you in there?" I ask as I twist the door knob but its locked, "go away....I don't wanna see you!" He says softly and hurt, I get more depressed and leave.

FEW HOURS LATER

I sit next to Seamus as I think to myself,
'Aleks.....I'm so sorry....i just wanted my shaft in you...I wanted to hear you moan my name as I thrust deep in you....why did you have to be so cute? Why did I feel warmer when you touched me? I think i-' I was interrupted by the sound of a gasp. I see Jordan's face was a deep red as I ask " What is is Hordan?" I say and look up at the chat

'OMG Jormus!'
'Its called KootraPKC!'
'Is Seamus gay for Koots too?'
'That smirk though'

I bit my bottom lip and look at the furious and embarrassed Jordan, I see him slam his hands on the table "Seamus we need to talk in my office NOW!!" He yells and leaves the room as Seamus looks at Jordan's chair. I look at Seamus as he leaves the room and I soon think to Aleks...
'Aleks.....he yelled at me for something he wanted...
I just want to say sorry....' I think as I hear Dan yelling my name "huh? What?" I say and look at Dan "are you okay?" Dan asks in concern as I nod slowly. Jordan comes in but...something's missing....."Jordan where's your hat?" I ask with a questionable look, he blushes a deep red and face palms himself as he sits down, I smile at him as he smiles back and we look at the chat

'Its KOOVA TIME!'
'no! It has to be KootraPKC!! THEY TOTALLY DID IT!'
'Da Faq? Is this a shipping stream?'
'Where's your hat!?'

I laugh at the chat as Seamus walks in with Jordan's hat and sits next to him. Once the stream is over I'm the only one in the room, usually me and Aleks would stay and put the mics away but...whatever. I take one step out the room and see Jordan and Seamus talking, I don't want to interrupt them so I stopped and watched. "So....Seamus later tonight I was wondering if we can....you know.." He says softly trying not to be pushy, "yeah I would love that." Seamus replies and kisses Jordan while putting his hat on him, "I'll see you in the car JJ." Seamus says and walks to the break room and exits through the door. I smile and walk over to Jordan "well it looks like someone's gonna get some sarcastic Dick tonight" I laugh as Jordan faces me and jumps slightly, "James! Well....I don't know about that...." He says and looks at the floor. "You know Jordan, your acting like a real shy teenage boy, and I thought that was Aleks's job" I say with a small smile as he hits my shoulder "speaking of Aleks, I haven't seen him all day, I wonder what's up with that." Jordan says while looking at his door, I frown. I look at Jordan and tell him what happen between me and Aleks, "oh...is that why he didn't want to come to creature talk...? But...Seamus said something about late videos." Jordan tells me as I look at him "Well, seems like your boyfriend is lying Hordan, so tell him whats going on alright." I say as he gets a text "yeah okay, listen I gotta go, Seamus is waiting." he says and leaves me in the hallway. I sigh and sit on the couch "I'll wait for Aleks...I can just listen to music" I say and bring my phone out, put my headphones in. I go on Twitter, fans send me stuff all the time but this one interested me

These guys sound like Aleks!
Tigers Jaw!

She sends me a link to a song. I lay down,and listen.

We are made of chemicals
But what holds us together is much more than that
You are strong, so much stronger than me
All along, because you are everything and I am nothing

We spend our summers writing songs
Of how we never make it on our own
But here we are
And I surrender
I'm running thin
You were right, because you are everything and I am nothing.

The strumming of the guitar and soft and beautiful voice that sounded so familiar to me made me drift off to sleep.

FEW HOURS LATER

I woke up to the sound of the floor creaking and my name being called, "James? What are you doing here? Its nearly Ten" Aleks says softly and shakes me to wake up. I look at him, he doesn't seem afraid. "oh..I was waiting for you....I wanted to talk..." I say and put my hand on his, he gives a scared look but it soon turned calm. "Okay...listen....I never meant for all of that to happen.." I hear what I say as I added quickly "so fast I mean..." I rub the back of my neck as my cheeks start to heat up. I look straight at him as he starts so talk "so......your saying you had no control...and you didn't realize what you were doing?" He says shyly as I nod. He smiles slightly and hugs me "I was a little worried...that you know....you would rape...." He coughs and gets off me "let's go home" he smiles as we both get up and go home.