"i think i've got some explaining to do." julian announced.
i rolled my eyes and sat back onto the couch.
he slowly sat beside me but didn't get too close.
"i went about this all the wrong way i guess." explained, "i just don't think i'm good for you, zoe."
i straighten up as those words taunt me.
"i care about you, so so much. but you deserve someone that had a good head on their shoulders. someone that makes you happy, and would never hurt you."
his words bury in my skin.
i wish i could explain it all to him.
the way i feel when around him, or the way he can make me smile. he isn't picture perfect and i know that.
but sometimes perfection is the complete opposite of perfection.
we've all got a shit ton of problems on our plate and that's what makes us unique.
that's what makes him so special to me.
"i love you." i responded.
he shakes his head back and forth trying to keep it all in. i see the emotions rise.
"you don't love me, zoe." he whispers. "so stop saying-"
"i love you, julian. i'll scream it at the top of the empire state building dammit." i blurted.
"i know sometimes those words are scary. i know that you are scared of the consequences of falling in love. and i know that i love you; believe it or not that's scary for me."
his eyes meet up with mine.
my bones start to feel weak from his consciousness. i feel a tear race down my cheek.
i instantly try to wipe it away but julian gets to it sooner.
"i'm sorry zoe." he apologized.
i didn't want an apology.
people apologize every day for stupid shit and yet continue to do the stupid shit. i'm sorry is only the start.
i just want to know that he is mine. i want to be able to wake up next to him or curl beside him before sleep. i guess it's more complex than it seems.
"we should run away from here." he pointed out.
"sounds quite lovely." i chuckle.
it does sound pretty amazing.
him and i roaming the streets together.
living off of fast food that kills our bodies.
not a care in the world.
"well you better get packed sunshine." he suggests, "we've got an adventure to begin!"
i lift his chin up, our noses almost touching. i can feel his slight breath on my bottom lip.
we each pull closer. our lips connect and the passion is stronger than ever.
a split second but also a forever.
flashbacks filled my mind.
the pain, sorrow, anger, fear; it all changed. in that moment i knew this was the way it is supposed to go.
happiness fills my heart and light shines through my soul.
this is it.
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