Feelings

What's Happening

We have been hanging out everyday this week, Raye and I. Since we met on Sunday there hasn't been and day were she didn't come over or we weren't texting non stop. I like her, I really like her. It was hard to say at first but it was the only logical explanation of the feelings I was trying to understand inside.

I know she feels it, the connection we have. But she knows about Jayson, they met on Tuesday when he stopped by.

Jayson senses a change in me, he knows something is wrong. I think he just thinks that I'm nervous about tomorrow but that's not the case. I'm not nervous about tomorrow, I'm nervous about my feelings for Raye. This is all new to me. I'm nervous about possibly breaking it off with Jayson. I'm nervous because I know that my life is about to change.

"Key hurry up with the popcorn, youre about to miss the movie."

Raye and I were supposed to be watching her favorite movie, I didn't like it too much but I would do anything just to be with her.

I sat on the couch before handing her the popcorn as she sat on the floor. She looked so good as the light from the TV illuminated her almond butter skin in the darkness.

"Come sit down here with me" she said breaking my thoughts. I slid down to the floor and rested my head on her arm. Over the past few days this had become my favorite spot, right next to my new favorite person.

The movie came to an end as the credits started to roll, I cant say I actually watched the movie because I was so caught up in how secure I felt next to her. Stuck in my thoughts I didn't see it coming... she kissed me. So soft yet intense, so short yet passionate.

"I'm sorry I shouldn't have done that, it just felt so right. I know that you're not gay but I feel like I have a connection with you and I just had to try. m sorry, ill leave."

Hearing those words warmed my body, she felt the same way I did. She wanted me just as much as I wanted her. "Kiss me again" I said before she made it to the front door. She was shocked, you could tell by the expression on her face. I left my spot on the floor joining her at the door. "kiss me again Raye."

She pushed me againt the wall with slight force before looking into my eyes. When her lips met mine they felt like soft pillows made of clouds, and tasted like sweet candy I wanted to eat all day. My sweet nectar dripped passed my shorts to my ankle as she led me to the couch. I felt my back against the couch as her lips made their way to my neck earning a slight moan. A moan, a sound I didn't even know my body was capable of making. This woman had my body feeling things they had never felt before. As my shirt lifted over my head followed by my bra, I gasped as her tongue met my erect nipple the same time her fingers found their way to my dripping pearl.

"Raye, Ive never done this before....sex." I say though the moans casue by her gental rubs on my clit.

"Do you want me to stop?" she asked as she removed her hand and tried to sit up.

"No! Just don't hurt me please." I said as I guided her hand back to it previous location.

She came and passionately kissed me while sliding off my shorts. At this moment I wanted her and I wanted her to have me. Her free hand so softly caressed my breast as my breathing picked up from the foreign sensations taken over my body. I jumped at the slight pain of rayes finger entering my body.

"Just relax baby" she said. Her voice rasper than I had ever head before causing me to be even more turned on. Getting more comfortable with her fingers inside of me I realized that her soft mouth was no longer on my body. I so craved to feel her lips on my body again. A moan escaped me as her fingers picked up speed steadly moving in and out of my weaking body. In an instant her fingers were gone and replaced with her silky tongue. She licked and sucked my juices up as they dripped down. She flicked her tongue across my now sensitive clit causing me to jump.

"Baby come whenever you like." she said. what did she mean by that?

Before I had any time to process her words her tongue vigorously flicked across my clit as she held my thighs to stop my running. My mind was going crazy. My heart was racing, my body was sweating, what was this I was feeling. I could feel the preasure building up in the pit of my stomach and she continued flicking her tongue. My body had never reacted this way. What was I supposed to do? In that moment my soul left my body as she sucked the life out of me and my clit. My legs started to shake uncontrollably and I couldn't take it anymore. " Fuuuuuckk" I screamed as the orgasim took over my body. I steadied my breathing and controlled the shaking in my legs trying to wrap my thoughts around what had just happened. She kissed my forhead as I lay on her chest. I felt so safe and secure, i trusted her.

I gave my virginity to a woman I had only known for 4 days when I couldn't give it to the man I had been with for 4 years. But, this just felt right. This felt so right.