Feelings

The Day After

My mind had been on Jayson all morning, what was I going to do. I just had this amazing night With Raye and I can't even enjoy it because I had this to deal with now. Truth be told I was nauseous just thinking about telling him what I had done. I knew I had to tell him though, he deserved to know. He wasted 4 yeas of his life on me and I wouldn't let him waist anymore.

After having that special moment with Raye I knew that all the rose petals in the world would not make me feel any different about Jay. I knew where I wanted to be and it wasn't with Jayson. I had been driving around trying to get my thoughts together, I knew Jayson would be at my apartment when I got there and I was dreading returning there. It felt like two birds were fighting in my stomach and my nerves were starting to get the best of me. I looked at the clock and decided that I should go talk to my brother, I had to tell somebody.

As I pulled up to Chis's house I thought about what I was going to tell him and how he would react. Growing up in my family stuff like this was wrong, but if this was wrong I didn't want anything to be right. I rang the doorbell but he didn't answer, he must still be asleep. I used my key to get in the door, and felt like something was off. I felt like something wasn't right. I walked in his room and couldn't believe my eyes. Jayson... here I am thinking the faster I get what I have to say out the faster I can feel like I'm no longer hurting him, and he's sleeping with my brother.I felt sick, I was his cover up. As I drove home I wondered how long this had actually been going on. how was he still so willing to have sex with me knowing that he was also having sex with my brother? I just didn't understand.

I sat home and prepared for Jayson's arrival, knowing that this was the end. We both wanted different things and it was better to get these real feelings out now than to hold on to them any longer. "Keona..? I heard his voice carry from the living room. This was it. " In here Jayson." I sat up in the bed, and when he walked in the look on his face was clear. He didn't want to do this any more than did. "Jayson I slept with someone. It was amazing. They made me feel in ways I never thought were possible. I know that this is so sudden but this is it. She's actually on her way here now. This just isn't going to work out."

"Key" That was her, I'd know her voice anywhere. "In the room." Jayson looked at me with an unreadable expression, maybe he knew he was caught. Maybe he didn't know ow to take my news. maybe he was happy that i finally gave him a way out.

As Raye walked in the room she was followed by another person, Chris. i called them both. I looked at both Jayson and Chris and thought about all the times they would talk about each other or argue so we could all hang out together. this was crazy."Jayson I know you're sleeping with my brother, I saw it with my own eyes this morning. I didn't see your car, it must have been parked around the block. You didn't answer the door Chris, so i used my key. I walked in to find you two there together"

"I-I was going to tell you I-" I cut Jayson off

"It's okay, I'm not mad. I just wish that we could have come to terms with ourselves yeas ago and not have wasted these 4 years."

"Thank you" that was all he said before he turned and walked away, with Chris right behind him.

This is where i wanted to be. alone with the girl of my dreams. She brought me so much strength as she hugged me. "Are you okay Key?" she asked. Honestly I was because I felt this was the way it was supposed to be. 4 years with him, and then I found Raye, and now I can show her my true feelings.

"Yes, I feel great."