The Tour J.P

WHO ARE YOU•16

6 years later

Its been 6 years since i last saw Joel. I kept in touch with everyone but him. Although i would stalk him once in a while. All i saw was him with models and girls. I dated Erick for like 7 months right after me and Joel broke up. But i had to end that relationship because i realized i was just using Erick to get my mind off of Joel. And it never worked.

As for all the girls Ally ended up dating Chris and are actually engaged. Dinah is dating this one famous model. Meanwhile Normani is with Richard. So that leaves Lauren and i. We are single Pringles. But its fun cause we get to go out like a girls night!

The groups... Well CNCO is still together. And Fifth Harmony, broke up. But we are all still friends. Lauren and i had a duo for sometime but decided to go solo after a while.

Today is the opening night of my solo tour. Everyone is going. All the guys and girls, but joel of course. I was very nervous. I had never been alone on a stage since my last performance i had on La Banda. Which was 10 years ago.

I get on stage and sing a couple of songs. Once i get to the most emotional song ever " who are you" , which is actually a song i used to sing with 5H, i begin to cry. All the lyrics remind me of Joel. He would be happy one day and mad the other.

"Monday you sent me flowers
Tuesday made me feel stupid
Wednesday the world was ours
Thursday you didn't prove it
Friday fell back in love
Saturday we didn't talk
Sunday you said you needed space

Do you miss me? Am I crazy?
Am I losing hold of your love baby?
Either you want me or you don't
I need to know, I need to know

Who are you today?
Will you be the sun
Or the pouring rain?
Who are you tomorrow?
Will you make me smile
Or just bring me sorrow?
Who are you gonna be
When I'm lost and I'm scared?
Who are you gonna be
When there's nobody there?
Who are you today?
'Cause I am still the same

Monday you had my heart
Tuesday you had me screaming
Wednesday we didn't part
Thursday you didn't mean it
Friday I shook it off
Saturday you got it wrong
Sunday I said I needed space

Do you miss me? Am I crazy?
Am I losing hold of your love baby?
Either you want me or you don't
I need to know, I need to know

Who are you today?
Will you be the sun
Or the pouring rain?
Who are you tomorrow?
Will you make me smile
Or just bring me sorrow?
Who are you gonna be
When I'm lost and I'm scared?
Who are you gonna be
When there's nobody there?
Who are you today?
'Cause I am still the same

Who are you? Who are you?

It's so strange how the same thing
Can make you feel so right
And bring you so much pain.
It's so strange how the same face
Can make you love until it hurts.
Where do we go?
I need to know -"

I was just 2 verses away from finishing the song when i saw him. It was him. His tan skin and bright smile. Perfect hair and jawline. I couldnt keep going. I ran off making a fool of me. Lauren who was front row ran to the back to see what was going on.

" whats wrong? You were doing so good" she said out of breath

" him. I-it was him." I said in tears

" i know i- invited him" she said looking out to the crowd from behind the curtain. " i knew how much you needed him for the past few years... And he said he needed you as well." She says

" no he doesn't he said i was dead to him"

" just get back on stage the crowd is waiting" Lauren said pushing me out from behind the long red curtain.

I couldn't handle it i cried so much. Basically crying a river. All i heard was the crowd screaming encouraging words. Next thing i now i see him arguing with Lauren and leaves.

After the show

"He left" she said disappointed

" good" i said as i began to take off my makeup

" good? I know how you feel. Im your bestfriend Camila. I know how much you need and want him"

" yes i know- i know i need and want him but he doesn't want me -"

" how do you know that" she says interrupting me " you haven't even said a word to him and are just assuming things.. I was just trying to help you cause i couldn't stand seeing you sad all the time." She said leaving the room.

I just didn't want to see him. But i had to. Eventually