Never Say Goodbye (Discontinued)

Diary Entry #6

March 5, 2116

It's been a week since the incident. I don't know what to do anymore. I'm so angry at everything and everyone. It's gotten to the point where I lashed out at my own reflection.

I've decided to lock my bedroom door so that no one can get in. I don't want to risk hurting Matthew again. I hope he can forgive my atrocious behavior.

I feel so lonely without Alfred by my side. I hope he's ok wherever he is in the afterlife. Sometimes I feel as if he's right beside me. Like he's there and wants to show it but can't.

I don't know what to think anymore. My mind is a jumbled mess and I don't know how to clean it or even where to start.

It's driving me crazy not knowing who had done it. I asked if they would tell me today but Matthew and Ivan still don't think I'm stable enough.

I think I can handle the bastard that took my world away. I know exactly what I'm going to do to them when I get the chance.

~Matthew~

It breaks my heart to see Arthur like this. I know for a fact that he is close to completely loosing it.

I walk into the kitchen and decide to make Arthur's favorite breakfast.

Scones with Earl Grey tea. Stereotypical I know but we're the personification of countries. We're bound to represent some stereotypes.

I had just finished making the scones when a pair of strong arms wrapped around my waist.

I leaned back into the embrace and sighed tiredly.

"You should rest." Ivan spoke up.

"I can't. With Arthur not able to take care of himself, let alone his country, someone has to do his work for him."

"But what about you? Arthur wouldn't want you to exhaust yourself. And you need time to grieve to."

"I have no choice Ivan. I will have all the time in the world to grieve. But Arthur's country needs me now. Besides, I promised Alfred on their wedding day that if something were to happen to him I would be there for Arthur."

Ivan sighed in defeat. When Matthew made a promise he kept it. That was something Matthew had in common with Alfred.

"I would let Scotland take over but we know that we can't trust him. I should have known he was the one behind it. He never really liked Alfred. Claiming that he wasn't good enough for his baby brother." Matthew grumbled and then huffed.

"He had no right to talk about my brother like that. He bullied Arthur for years and even used him for his own gain when they were young."

Ivan listened to Matthew as the Canadian continued to let out his frustration. Ivan knew that this was his own little way of expressing himself.

After a while Matthew finished making the food and headed to Arthur's room. Ivan decided that they should watch a movie in order to clear Matthew's mind.

He was currently using the old TV America kept and looked through the DVD's. For some reason Alfred loved the 21st century and wanted to preserve it as much as he could.

This was one of the ways he achieved it.

He was suddenly interrupted when Matthew came running in.

"What's wrong? Did something happen to Arthur?" Ivan asked.

Matthew nodded as his eyes began to water.

"Arthur's missing."

A/N: So I felt that I needed to include Matthew and Ivan some more into the story. And that I need it to start progressing. I hope I'm going at a good pace for you guys. I don't want to rush it but I don't want it to go to slow either.