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You hurt me and I hurt you
But when I hurt you something needs to happen to give me some sort closure
And I'm sorry for this poor posture
I just can't stand up straight and take this like a man today
I'm too broken
And there's so many things I want to say if only you would listen

And I'll put my fingers in the door so when I close it on you, maybe I'll hurt a little bit too
I'll put my fingers in the door so when I close it on you, I'll hurt a little bit too
Because the only reason I held on to you was because I felt I had nothing left
And the deeper I carve into this rock,
I'm realizing it's not gonna fit into the shape I want
So I quit
'cause I've always been afraid to fall in love
'cause there's something about falling that just doesn't sound worth it

And I've said it before and I'll say it again
It was problematic at best
because you beckoned me
And you lessened me
And no other love would accommodate my blindfold so easily
But now I can see
Now I can see

God, I gave you all of my love
but I can't see past this hurt
God, I gave you all of my love
So now what do I give to her?

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