TORN

Real Mother

Unedited... 

Enzo POV

Everything was heartbreaking. Lahat ng nalaman ko ay mas masakit pa sa nararamdaman ko. Cassie is the only person that I looked up to para matanggap ko lahat lahat. This is my destiny, my fate, God's plan. I was born because of Sin and these things that are happening to me siguro kabayaran ng kasalanan ng Ina ko.

Sunday ng pinayagan na ako ng doctor na lumabas for the mean time. The first thing I decided to do is to visit my biological mother, sa cementeryo.

"Hon? Okay ka lang? Pwede nating wag ituloy ang pagbisita sa nanay mo." Cassie told me

"No Hon, I'm fine.. I want to meet her." I said and gave her an assuring smile.

After 30 minutes nakarating na kami sa Heavenly Cemetery. We went to a care taker at tinanong kung nasaan ang puntod ng ina ko. Hindi naman kami nahirapan hanapin ni Cassie because malapit lang ito sa entrance ng cementeryo..

RIP

In Loving Memories of:

Erlinda Belmonte

Born: January 3, 1962

Died: April 28,1992

I just can't believe na nasa harap na ako ng taong nagluwal sa akin sa mundo. Maraming bagay ang tumatakbo sa isip ko ngayon. I just can't help it but my tears started to fall.

"Hon, iwan muna kita rito. I know you want to be alone with your mother. I'll be on the car." Naagaw lang ni Cassie ang atensyon ko ng nagsalita siya.

"Okay hon.. this won't be long" I replied.

"Just take your time" she smiled and walked away.

"hi!" I sat down beside her touching the coldness of the marble.

"I know you will hear me. You're angel now,right? Marami akong tanong sa'yo pero I will reserve it and I ask you after life. Noong malaman ko na hindi ako tunay na anak ni mommy, natakot ako, mas natakot ako ng malaman ko na wala na ang totoong ina ko. Wala ng sasagot sa mga katanungan ko. I was made by sin? Bakit? Look at me now? I'm helpless like you before. Do you really want me to go with you there? Bakit ang selfish mo? Bakit sa dinarami-raming pwedeng ipamana bakit ang ganitong sakit pa? bakit?!" I started to tremble. The pain is unbearable.

"I-I was the payment of your unrighteousness before. I suffered a lot! From the attention hanggang ngayon sa sakit ko. Is this what you want? Huh?! Is this what you want your child to experience here on earth? Look at me now! I'm dying! I will soon leave those people I truly love and care about. You can't blame me why I act this way, because this pain is silently killing me right now." I can't control my feeling right now. I cried and cried and cried... until someone hugged me at the back..

"Sshh.. hon.. I'm here..stop crying.. I love you! I will never leave you" Cassie comforted me

"Ang daya niya! Ang daya daya niya..." I cried like a baby.. for once in my life I felt so helpless..

CASSIE POV

Iniwan ko si Enzo sa puntod ng nanay niya, I know marami siyang sasabihin I want them to be alone.

I was in the car when I heard Enzo's cry. I hurriedly go to him. I saw him crying like a child. Alam kong galit siya, maraming katanungan sa isip niya. Gusto ko lang sanang tinganan siya sa malayo, pero hind ko kinaya.