suicidal √

{first} relationship

alex said he would be there for me.
to always protect me.
we are already going strong
for 2 months.
i was staying at his apartment.

i am so glad to have him.
by my side.
supporting me through emotional breakdowns.
he is really understanding.
and caring.
and kind.
and helpful.
the list could go on and on,
when he is not even my husband.

he calls me lana.
my previous middle name.
he likes the name.
he liked originality.
but he still supported on
making my new name legal.

his support
made me stronger.
his hugs
warmed my body.
his kisses
warmed my cheeks.
his cuddles
warmed the night.

he is really pretty on the inside.
but i am not.
he says its okay.
i am here,
still alive,
with him by my side.
i said,
you will betray me like my parents.

he said,
i will never,
ever,
break you after what you have gone through.
listen here my darling.
i love you.
as much as how cheesy it sounds,
how fast i fell in love,
i vow to always protect you.
no matter what,
monsters or
your parents or
gangsters or
whoever that brings harm to you,
i will be your knight in shining armor.