I used to be so angry
So sad
I wanted to be dead
But now
I don't know
I'm not quite angry
I'm not quite sad
I even manage to laugh sometimes
But I know I am not happy
What's wrong with me?
I feel so numb
I don't even care anymore
I don't necessarily want to die
But I don't know how to be alive
Even though I'm breathing
Sometimes I feel like I'm dead
I prick my fingertips to see if I can actually feel
I feel so numb
What's wrong with me?
I laugh and smile
Sometimes I do feel happy for a moment
Then when I am alone with my thoughts
I know I'm not alright
My self-esteem isn't as low as before
But drains everyday
Confidence slowly dying
Why am I crying?
Why am I even trying?
Things never get better for me,
No one even cares
But I can't help but want to be happy
I know I need help
But you'd rather keep it a secret
I am getting closer to defeat
I can barely sleep
What's wrong with me?
