A love that's too late

Chapter 5- Flashback

Have you ever felt so hurt that you wanted to cry more but couldn't? Because you're tears have deserted you. Because you have cried all of them out. Because you have now dehydrated yourself. 

"Water?" a hoarse voice offered.

I ignored the voice and closed my eyes. Partly, because it hurt to open them. They throbbed and my eyeballs were raw. But mostly because, I didn't want to see anyone. Not even the guy who comforted and hugged me until the rain stopped. Not even Shtickler.

I don't know what's worse. The fact that somehow my heart still loves him. You stupid traitor.  

 Or if it's the fact that he didn't tell me he was leaving. Was he scared? Did he not bother? Did he not care?

This doesn't make any sense. This wasn't Alex at all. He would never hurt me. He would never leave me. He was my best friend.  I closed my eyes and heard a loud yet distant voice. I know exactly who it is. My heart.

Oh, I'm Lizz's heart and I like to annoy her by still loving the guy who left me. WAHAHAHAHAHAHAH! 

Shut up.

I'm your heart you can't tell me to shut up. YOU SHUT UP.

You're just a stupid organ. Don't tell me to shut up!

You're the one who can't control your organ. You may control your hands and feet but guuuuurrl, you can't tame me. I'm feisty. MEOW!

What the heck!? Don't speak to me like that. I can make you sick you know.

How?

Fatty foods. Heart disease.

I shook my head. I'm crazy now aren't I? Who talks to their organs? What kind of organ 'meows'?

I sighed.

Then I closed my eyes and lay down on the rough concrete. The harsh sounds of the airplanes running and flying past me singing a sweet lullaby.

****(Flashback)****

 The sweet gentle breeze tickled past my pale skin and brushed against my mahogany hair. I clenched on the two chains of metal beside me. I swayed my legs back and forth, gaining speed and height. It was almost as if I could touch the skies with the tip of my toes.

"Swing higher!" a voice yelled, almost as if he was challenging me. His voice sounded like melting honey and the whispering sounds of the ocean. So sweet yet sexy. Just the way I liked it.

"No!" I said. " This is high enough."

I could see the beautiful scenery. The park. Whenever my swing would swing at it's highest, I see almost everything in the park. The lush, green mountains and the freshly mowed grass on the field.  I could see the little kids playing over at the playground. The dogs chasing sticks and tennis balls. It was so cliche, yet I loved it. Because of who I was with.

"Don't be a chicken," Alex grinned.

So easy for him to say, he was on the ground, standing and looking at me with his midnight black shades. 

"Bocky-bock-sizzle-bocky-bock-sizzle," Alex mocked.

I couldn't come down and squeeze his shoulders because my swing was still swaying very high.

"Shut up!" I begged. "Please shut up!"

That gained us stares from the adults around the park.

Alex stared at them back. Each of them. He stared at them with innocent stares and a beaming smile. They quickly looked away while others muttered something rude.