Lovesick

Guilt

(Paige P.O.V)

"It was Sunday and tonight was another live event in another town. I had just arrived at the arena about a half hour ago and was sitting in the catering area with Foxy and Rosa. I anxiously sat around and waited because thankfully, my Deanie boo had to work on this live event with me. So, he would be here any minute now. God I missed him so much and I just know he missed me too. Hell, he missed me even when I was only going to the bathroom! I really wanted to see him, so I could hug him, kiss him, and hear all about how much fun he had at the party last night. I totally sat there daydreaming while Foxy and Rosa were chatting.
"Paige...Paige...PAIGE!" Foxy shouted. "Huh, what? What'd I miss?" "Umm you seem to have missed our whole conversation" said Rosa. "She totally did. What were you thinking about, Paigey? You been thinking about your, booooo?" Foxy said as she giggled. "Maybe...maybe not" I said as I tried to hold back my smile. I couldn't hide that huge smile of mine. Especially when I was thinking about my bae. Well, he's pretty much always on my mind so technically, I was always smiling. He just made me so happy and I really hope I make him feel the same happiness that I feel. "Paige we totally see you trying to hide that HUGE smile, you were totally thinking about him!" said Foxy. "Fox she's definitely in love with him, we should be happy for her" said Rosa. "I really agree with Rosa on this one, Foxy. I am most definitely happy with him, I actually feel like he's the one for me." "I am very happy for you, Paige. You know that. Dean and you are like the cutest couple ever and I'm glad he makes you happy like that" Foxy said. "I really appreciate that. I wish he was here because I miss him so much. I could just run up to him right now and kiss him all over his face!" I said as I covered my face from blushing. They both giggled. "Paige, I think you will be able to do that right now actually." I lifted my head up and looked at them with a confused face. "What do you mean?" I asked. They both pointed fingers behind me and I turned around to look in the direction where they were pointing. That's when I seen Dean from afar walking in with his luggage in hand. "OH MY GOD!" I instantly got up from my chair and ran towards him as fast as I could."

(Dean P.O.V)

"I just got to the arena for the live event tonight. I wasn't completely hungover because I didn't have too much to drink last night but I was definitely feeling something. This feeling had nothing to do with any amount of drinks I consumed. This feeling was called guilt. I didn't wanna kiss Nikki, no I did but, I just didn't mean for it to last that long. It wasn't supposed to be that way at all but it was and I can't take it back. Damn, I hated this feeling so much and the worse part was that my girlfriend is here too and I'd have to face her while I felt this way. Maybe I could dodge her long enough until I wasn't feeling as bad. Nah, that's a dumb idea, why am I so stupid? Next thing I know is when I looked up I could see Paige running towards me with open arms. Fuck.
"BABEEEEEE!!!" She shouted as she ran into my arms. I smiled a bit as I lifted her up and hugged her tightly. "I missed you so much" she said as she hugged me tight. I wanted to tell her how much I missed her too, but the words just wouldn't come out. Come on, Dean, pull yourself together. "I-I missed you too, Paige.." She seemed like she didn't wanna let me go. I honestly wanted to let her go right now because this guilt was eating me alive. She leaned up her head and looked at me. I didn't dare to look into her eyes because that would kill me. So I just tried to focus on her, anywhere but the eyes. "Are you okay, babe?" "Yeah, I'm fine. I just really missed you a lot, you know. "I missed you too, and I can't wait to hear all about the party" she said as she leaned in for a kiss. I quickly put her back onto the floor to avoid kissing her. "I-I actually have something for you, babe." I said quickly as I grabbed a small box from my pocket. I could see that beautiful smile start to appear on her face as I placed the box in her hands. Seeing her smile made me so happy but that wasn't enough to get rid of this guilt feeling. She opened up the box and smiled happily. "Aww, my Deanie boo, it's a bracelet!" She said as she admired it. "Yeah, it's a charm bracelet. If you look at it, I bought your first charm too. It's the letter D." "D, as in Dean?" She said as she looked at me and I smiled a bit. "Yeah, of course. I don't ever want you to forget me." I said as I helped her put the bracelet on her wrist. "I could never forget my sweetheart. You just make me so happy, I love you." Those words crushed me. As soon as she said she loved me, I just wanted to run face first into a brick wall. I cheated on her last night and after hearing her say that she loved me, only made me feel more guilty. She leaned in and kissed my lips but I couldn't kiss back. Fuck. She gave me a weird look. "What's wr--" "OK babe, I hope you like the bracelet" I said as I quickly picked my luggage up off the floor. "I love it, baby. But why are you so---" "I have to go get ready now, I'll come by and talk to you later on. Go show your friends your new bracelet. Bye!" I hurried off before she could say anything else to me. I had to go find my bros and tell them about this. They're the only ones I could possibly tell and try to get some help from. Damn I hate this guilt feeling.
I finally made it to the locker room and damn I was lucky because both Seth and Roman were in there. "Guys I need help!" I said as I frustratingly threw my luggage onto the floor. "Whoa, Dean. What's wrong man?" Seth said. "I told you that he was crazy, dude" Roman said jokingly. "This is no time for jokes, Ro! I feel like I'm dying right now!" "Sorry man, what's the problem?" "Seth I actually blame you for this" "WHAT? What did I do to you?" Seth asked. "You dared me to kiss Nicole last night" "Aw come on Deano, you know you wanted to." "It doesn't matter if I wanted to or if I didn't, all I know is now that I feel so much guilt. And it's killing me! I can't even look Paige in the eyes. I didn't even tell her I Love You back because of this damn guilt feeling." I said as I put my hands over my face I'm frustration. "Dean if you knew you were gonna feel like this, then why did you kiss Nikki?" Roman asked. "I didn't know I was gonna feel like this, I even questioned it. But y'all know Nikki is basically the hottest woman in the divas division and last night she was barely wearing anything, she looked so damn good to me. I just had to do it." "Nah, wait a minute you think Nikki is the hottest woman in the divas division?" Roman asked. "Well..yeah.." "You must not have seen Eva Ma--" "Will you two knock it off already?!" Seth shouted. "Dean, listen to yourself. Nikki is in your past and you're dating Paige. You can't tell her that you love her and you think other women are hotter than her, are you out of your mind?" "I don't know what condition I'm in right now, man. I do love Paige, but that kiss last night with Nikki made me realize that I'm still in love with her." "Dude, she broke up with you for a reason, if she was still in love with you, she would be trying to get you back or something...you have to realize that Paige is the one and she loves you." Roman said. "Roman's right, Deano. You only feel guilty because you're afraid of hurting her." "I don't wanna feel guilty anymore. What do I do about this feeling?" I sighed and kept my face in my hands. "You'll have to tell her."