Lovesick

Kiss & Tell

(Paige P.O.V)

This weekend would be like no other. I called it, The Moving Weekend. I was beyond excited to be moving in with my Deanie boo. I never thought we would make it this far honestly. I remember us just being close friends and doing friendly stuff together. Now here we are, best friends, lovers, and still each other's shit face. I wouldn't wanna have it in any other way right now. I truly believe that he's the love of my life, he makes me feel special and that makes me happy. In my opinion, happiness is the most important thing in the world.
I had already packed up only a few of my things and now was the next step: moving it from Tampa all the way to Las Vegas! Seemed like it would be pretty hard but it's no big deal really. Airplanes do come in handy! So through flight, I would be able to move most of my things from here to there. I also got movers to move my much bigger things to Las Vegas for me on Sunday, so everything would be taken care of. I honestly could not wait until I would be done with the moving part. As soon as I would be finished with all that, I could officially say that I would be living in my dream house. Not that Dean's house was amazing, it is, but it's my dream house because I would get to share it with him. I'd be living in it with him, what more could I even ask for right now? I was just so happy. Dream job, dream house, and dream man, nothing is perfect in this world but I sure as hell believe that my life is better than perfect. Our future is so bright.

(Dean P.O.V)

I couldn't keep this up for much longer. The guilt I felt wasn't really as bad as the first time, but still I hated the feeling of it. I couldn't keep hurting Paige by continuously kissing Nikki back to back. She doesn't deserve that. No woman or man deserves to be cheated on. I feel like an asshole because I'm the one who's been cheating. But there's reason for that. I love Nikki, we have a past but somehow I feel like we still have a future together. Maybe she's truly the one for me. But then again, I love Paige. She's always been there through good times and bad times. I love her so much, but I can't keep doing this to her. Kissing the same woman behind her back over and over again doesn't really show how much I love her. I had to tell her to get things off of my chest. Though, I feel like when I tell her this, yet again, I'm gonna lose her. But maybe that's the best thing for her. She deserves so much better than me, she may not realize that but it's the truth.
I paced all over my house as I anxiously waited for her to get here. I already knew she was gonna be on cloud 9 when she arrives but from what was about to go down, she was gonna be on cloud -9. I hate to see her when she's sad and I hate it even more when I'm the cause of her sadness but it had to be done. I had to tell her. No more hiding things behind her back, no more lies, and no more cheating. And I hated to think about it because I knew that there would be no more us either.

(Paige P.O.V)

Vegas!!! My new city. This is where my new home is. I've always loved Vegas. Anytime I would come here, I'd have so much fun. When people think of Vegas, they think about Casinos most of the time. But not me. When I think of Vegas, I thought about all the beautiful sights to see and of course, cool places to shop. Now, I think of Vegas as my new home. Tampa was home and Norwich will always be my hometown, no matter what. But wherever Dean is, my heart says that is my true home and here I am!
I arrived at Dean's house, or should I say our house, not too long ago. He helped me carry boxes inside and as we got all of them in, I quickly decided that I wanted to unpack right away. "Do you want to help me start to put my first few things in place, babe?" I said as I eagerly tried to open up the first box. "No, Paigey. I actually have to talk to you about something." "Okay, what is it? You're not gonna like go over a whole list of house rules or anything like that are ya?" I asked as I laughed a little. "No. It's not that at all. Maybe worse.." he said. "Worse? What's wrong, Dean? Is everything okay?" I asked him as I looked at him standing there. He didn't look like he was in a good mood today. I wondered what was bothering him. I honestly thought he would be just as super psyched as I was today, about me moving in with him. Maybe he wasn't ready for this? "Here, sit down. You might not want to unpack while we talk." He said as I walked over to the couch and sat down. I was getting nervous. Something was telling me that this talk wasn't going to be anything good. He sat across from me and burying his face in his hands then sighed before he spoke up.
"Listen, I can't do this. Something tells me that we ain't right for each other, and I think you deserve to be happy with someone else." I looked at him confusingly. "Wait, what do you mean, Dean?" "I don't deserve you, Paige. You need someone who can make you happy." "But you make me happy. I'm beyond happy with you." I said with my voice cracking a bit. This could not be happening. Tell me this was not happening. "I love you so much, I'm very happy." "Look, I love you too but to tell you the truth, I still love Nikki. I've never stopped loving her. I just can't seem to get her off of my mind." When he said those exact words right there, is when my heart shattered. I already felt the tears forming and quickly falling down my cheeks. All I could manage to say was 'what?...' even though I heard his words clearly. "I'm sorry, Paige. I kissed her again when I shouldn't have and I didn't mean to hurt you. That's why I feel like you deserve better than me" he said. I stood up and tried to wipe away the endless tears that were still coming down. I tried to walk over to the door to leave but he walked in front of me. "Please Paige, I know you're mad at me. But please hear me out, I never wanted to hurt you. That was never my intentions." I really wanted to slap the shit out of him right now but I couldn't, although he deserved it. He cheated on me, I gave him a second chance, he cheated on me again, and no I feel like a damn fool. I guess I was just a fool in love with the wrong person. I didn't even look at him, I just wanted to get the fuck outta there and never speak to him again, if I'm honest. "Please Paige, say something." He pleaded. "Or at least tell me that we can still be friends, I really hope we can" he said. "Sure..." I said quietly and walked right pass him out the door. Fool me once, shame on you. Fool me twice, shame on me. I guess this weekend really was like no other, because I was not expecting this.