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Betrayal

Why can no one be your friend without breaking you. Is it some kind of rule that you must betray and hurt someone after your there friend. Or us it just me that everyone does it to. Your best friends. Do everything together. You shouldn't mind how the other one dresses or how popular they are. And you shouldn't dump them when you get bored of them. Best friends are supposed to stay together. Like Riley and Maya in Girl Meets World. But in real life it never goes like that. You end up falling out over something  stupid and never talking to eachother again. I wish that was what happened to me. Because what my best friend did was much worse. Being jealous, self centred  making the other person feel stupid, fat, ugly, hopeless isn't a very good quality of a best friend. Maybe that's why I gave up on her. 

When I was 12 I had just gotten over my anorexic. I started again at another school. A new fresh start. That's what Mum said, but I was dreading it. I remember the shopping trip so vividly. We tried on so many pairs of school shoes but I didn't like any of them. The school uniform was ugly and I remembered being so grumpy Mum got fed up and took me home. Great day out. Anyway in the first week I was an outcast. No one spoke to me, they teased me. To this very day I still don't know why. Maybe I made a bad first impression. But I was a laughing stock. Until one day a girl called Lucy came. She took me under her wing and soon we were best friends. We did everything together and some people thought we were sisters. We looked pretty alike but I think it'd because we were always together. We took the same classes same everything. We couldn't be seperated. When life was bad at home she made me smile and laugh and was great fun. 

Until one day she stopped. She started getting jealous whenever I even talked to anyone else. She told what I could and couldn't do and was so self centred. If I didn't chose her for a partner in class I would never hear the end of it. She started going off to hang out with other people and leaving me alone. So while she was away I made new friends. She came running back to me as soon as she saw I had made new friends. She wanted all the power. She wanted me to come crying back to her, but I didn't. It was a good chance to make other friends. 

Then we started fighting

** FLASHBACK**

"Omg why didn't you chose me as your partner in science ," grumbled Lucy

" I just wanted to go with Hannah for once, it doesn't matter," I replied 

" Ugh you only use me for comfort and then you use everyone else for popularity and fun." 

Her words stung, it hurt because that wasn't true at all, I couldn't believe her.

" Maybe I hang out with Hannah because she are actually nice to me and dosnt  get angry when I hang out with other people! " I yelled

" I don't even know why I'm friends with you." Lucy yelled stalking off.

I stood there like she had slapped me in the face 

** End Flashback** 

And so it went on. Day after day, week after week. But the thing is she always made me feel like I had to apologise. I felt stupid. She called me things like, ugly, fat. I felt worthless. A friend shouldn't make you feel like that and if they are you should leave because they arnt a very good friend. If only I had known that at the time. My heart would be less broken. Then one day I decided I had had enough. I didn't need her. So when she apologised I said no. She had hurt me enough  times. People aid I was wrong not to give her a second chance, but I had given her millions. People say I'm being dramatic but when you are hurt time and time again by the same person it does hurt. More than people think. It taught me that you shouldn't have one amazingly close best friend. Just have a small group of amazing friends you can count on. And I have never trusted anyone that same as I did her again, just in case.  

A/N

Hey guys! 💋

Thanks so much for reading this far, sorry it's so long I felt it all belonged together. Just know if this is happening to you or someone you know help them or ask for help. If someone ( a friend) is doing this to you then leave them. You don't have to be with someone you don't want to be with. They are obviously not a good friend and you can message me on here if you ever need to talk and I will listen. 

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Jenna xox