Carnophobia || Natepat fanfiction

Carnophobia || Bonus Chapter

Bonus Chapter
-Bullet-

We hit the sky
There goes the light
No more sun
Why's it always night?

Jack looked at the photo him and Mark on his bedside table, it had been at least four months since the incident, he didn't talk about he didn't tell anyone at school what had happened to Shannon and what had happened to Mark. He sighed heavily, he wasn't over it, every part of his body hurt he contently felt like he was drowning, it was difficult to breath. The male no longer when out after school, he'd isolated himself but he always made up a believable excuse when ever invited to social intervention. Nobody had any clue, he put a finger to his lip and if he focused he could still feel Mark's soft lips.

He lay back on his bed and closed his eyes trying to picture the male in his head but what he'd seen haunted him, whenever he closed his eyes all he could see was Nate or Natemare slitting his boyfriends throat and the cannibal brother devouring his body until there nothing left.

The Irish male thought back to that night to everything that happened, a few stray tears rolled down his cheeks. He could no longer picture a happy Mark in his head, he was left with scars.

He attempted to sleep but his sleep was filled with haunting memories, he cried out for Mark in his sleep.

When you can't sleep
Well, you can't dream
When you can't dream
Well, what's life mean

❝Mark, you broke your promise you said you wouldn't leave me alone,❞ The Irish male cried hugging his knees to his chest, he knew it wasn't Mark's fault but he wanted someone to blame and the broken promise was the one thing that hurt him like hell.

His eyes were open and bloodshot, he hadn't been able to sleep since the day. He picked up the photograph of the two smiling widely, Jack had his arm wrapped around Mark's waist and was trying to kiss him but failing, in a fit of sheer anger he threw the photo across the room and watched the frame shatter, he immediately felt guilty.

❝Markimoo, I'm sorry I didn't mean to...❞ He tried to sweep up the glass but instead cut his fingers, he felt a strange calmness as he watched the blood drip from his fingers.

We feel pity
But don't empathise
The older are getting older
Watch a young man die

The Irish male ran a hand through his messy hair, he was a complete mess he looked in the mirror and he threw his fist into it, the bluenette had always told him he was beautiful but he couldn't see it and without Mark there was nobody to convince him otherwise.

He fished his phone out of his pocket and opened his notes up, he took a deep breath he started writing rapidly a letter to his friends or the people he still talked to. His eyes fell onto one name; Mark, he clicked onto messages and a single tear escaped him as he saw their final message;
Jackaboi you're perfect okay don't think otherwise I love you so damn much ❤️
He was away to throw the phone when he stopped himself, he copied the note and sent it to Kayla. He didn't have long now, he raise to his feet and got what he needed and headed outside.

A mother a son
And someone you know
Smile at each other
And realise you don't

Memories followed him wherever he walked, they were unavoidable. He passed the park, seeing small children playing on the swing set made him smile. He'd broken Mark's arm by shoving him on the swing, he chuckled, the noise was raspy and dry he hadn't laughed in a long time, his voice box wasn't use to it.

❝Do you remember the park Mark?❞ He whispered quietly looking upwards, he knew without the bluenette he was nothing, he looked down at his hand and saw the ring they'd given each other when they were children, he tore his eyes away from it.

You don't know what happened to that kid you raised
What happened to the father who swore he'd stay?
I don't know 'cause you didn't say
Now Mama feels guilt, yeah Mama feels pain

Mark and Jack were playing at the park, the sun was setting quickly the two boys were laughing with each other, they may have been too old to be playing at the park and the younger children where waiting for them to leave however getting the hint the two wouldn't be leaving, the younger children left the park.

❝Jack, I have a gift for you,❞ Mark grinned widely holding his hand out gesturing the male to close his eyes, the Irish male obeyed shutting his eyes a small smile spread across his lips as he felt something small being dropped into his palm.
He opened an eye and saw the bluenette looking at him with a hopeful expression and in his hands was a ring,
❝It's a promise ring, it means I'll love you for as long as I live Jack. I have no as well, so people will know that the two of us our together. Do you like it? I know it's kind of cheesy and stupid.❞

The Irish male slipped it on his finger and smiled, taking the bluenette by his waist and kissing him,
❝You know I like cheesy things Markimoo.❞
Mark grinned away to try to kiss his boyfriend again but Jack had let the male go and was running around,
❝If you want another kiss you need to catch me.❞

When we were young
We never thought we'd die
Found out you could
But too scared to try

He'd made it to his location, he let out a few shaky breaths, he was afraid but he couldn't take it any longer. His eyes were stuck to the promise ring, he'd hoped that one day it would have been a wedding ring but now he wouldn't have that chance.

❝I know you always made me promise to stay strong but I miss you Mark.❞

He ran his fingers along the leather around his waist, slowly he took his belt off and gently ran his finger down it. He looked up at the treehouse him and Mark had made, he smiled softly.

❝I'm glad I could at least see the treehouse one more time.❞

He tied his belt around the branch looking at the hoop of leather.

You looked in the mirror
And said goodbye
Climb to the roof
To see if you could fly

He put his head through the hole and took a final breath before jumping making one final smile.

❝I failed you Mark, I'm sorry.❞

His sight began to blur, every part of his body began to hurt and slowly all he could see was Mark. He closed his eyes.

He would be with Mark soon.

So if I survive
Then I'll see you tomorrow
Yeah I'll see you tomorrow

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I'm a bad person please forgive me!
This was pretty badly written but the epilogue took me about 2 and a half hours so...
Oops
I'll be posting that later tonight hence why this update is earlier than usual
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