Carnophobia || Natepat fanfiction

Carnophobia || Chapter Twelve

Chapter Twelve
-Things are best left forgotten-

Tears soaked Nate's shoulder as the blond finally pulled away from him a halfhearted smile on his face. The ebony blinked away the tears glistening in his eyes, fear consumed him if Matt knew he'd kill him.

You're a monster Nathan Sharp

And maybe that was true but he couldn't let his own thoughts stop him from comforting the theorist. He pushed his glasses further up his nose to help him focus on Matt's face, the male's tears still glittered and his eyes were now bloodshot his hair a mess.

❝I'm sorry Matt I really am,❞ He whispered meaning every word more then Matt could understand at the present time. The ebony's voice cracked and his body shook, the male he still couldn't quite comprehend or understand for he himself was the reason why he no longer had a family. The 'cannibal' couldn't stop pushing the blame onto himself but for the sake of keeping his secret he had to stay quiet.

He bit his lip and pressed Matt against his chest before finally letting him go, the blond saw Nate's expression seeing the dullness and fear although of what he did not know. The theorist wiped his eyes feeling like a baby, he lightly pressed his lips into a straight line.

❝Matt...❞ Nate gulped trailing off instead of telling the blond he was planning on keeping it from him. The theorist looked at the ebony still recovering from breaking down.

Slowly he took deep breaths inhaling the air in and out, being in a toilet a horrible smell of vomit filled his nose, Matt eventually calmed down and managed to focus his eye sight on the ebony who's frame was slightly blurred. Nate had bit his dry lips feeling the hard skin, he pushed back his own thoughts which were yelling at him, words of discouragement and depression. He felt like he was drowning in his own thoughts but to avoid being selfish he tried to forget to only think of Matt.

The blond gained his posture and got to his feet pulling the carnophobic to his feet, they were both standing not daring to say a word to the other, Nate wanted to hug the theorist some more tell him he was sorry explain to him why he was sorry, he wanted to tell him everything - only he couldn't.

Both males studied the other looking for anyway of a conversation but what could you say after experiencing a meltdown like that and hearing the heart filled apologies that meant nothing to one of them and the world to the other.

Lips pursed awaiting words to escape but nothing instead Matt embraced Nate,
❝It was years ago, I shouldn't be acting like this.❞

The ebony put a finger under the blond's chin easing his face up to look the 'cannibal' in the eyes,
❝It's your family, of course you'd still be upset.❞

Matt saw Nate's seriousness that glimmered in his eyes and the concern projected through his body actions, he bit his lip and nodded feeling like he wasn't dominate for once the ebony had the blond under his control for the time passing.

He brought his face closer until it was only mere inches away from Nate when the bathroom door swung open.

Standing in the doorway of the bathroom was Mark, his blue hair illuminating him from the disgusting green lighting set by the room, the blond glanced at the bluenette before his jaw snapped shut and immediately pulling his eyes away to look towards the carnophobic.