The Streets Or Her

chapter 21

~Joy

3 months later.....

Sy' decided to keep Strength since it was the night of Jasiyon and I anniversary.I miss him so much. Jasiyon and I been separated for three months and here I was sitting in the living room alone. Drinking a glass of wine with some candles lite listening to Latimore "Let's Straighten it out" as the tears rolled down my face. I took a sip of my wine as the lyrics played through out the room.

"Sit yourself down, girl, and talk to me;

Tell me what's uh on your mind.

Don't keep on tellin' me everything's OK, 'Cause if it was, then you wouldn't be cryin'.

You been tossin' and turnin' in yo' sleep lately, Sittin' 'round poutin' all day long.

Now how in the hell you expect me to understand, When I don't even know what's wrong?

Let's straighten it out."

Just then the front door opened and in walks Jasiyon. I downed my fourth cup and pour me another as he came and sat next to me. There was a moment of silence. Until I broke down crying as the lyrics to Monica "One in a lifetime" played as Jasiyon pulled me close to him. Jasiyon was my man and I needed him.

"But I was foolish I shouldn't let you go

But now I miss you I gotta let you know

I need you back, back in my life

I need your kiss, kiss in my life

And it's been so long since you been gone

Baby, won't you come back home?"

"Joy I'm so sorry I never meant to hurt you. Baby I love you and I miss my family. Joy I wanna come back home. I sit up every night and cry. I cry because I ruined it with the woman I love the most. I know I fucked up baby I swear we can work it out. Joy I need you. I swear I can't live without you. Your the mother of my child"

"I'm not the only one." I said getting up and walking into the kitchen.

"Joy I'm sorry baby please."

"Jasiyon you hurt me and out of y'all those years I watched you play those other chicks I seen how you played with their minds before you fucked them. I was there Jasiyon. But you Neva played me until now. Why baby why."

"Joy I know I fucked up and I know I hurt you."

"I'm not the only one you hurt. Do you know how hard it was to sit up at night and listen to Strength cry for his daddy huh what the fuck was I was suppose to tell him his daddy fucked some other woman and got her pregnant. So daddy had to leave. He cried for you Jasiyon we both did." I said pounding on his chest. Jasiyon hold me tight as we both cried.

"Jasiyon I don't know about this"

I said taking another sip of my wine before I accidentally dropped the bottle on the floor.

"Joy you had enough for one night"

"Don't tell me what the fuck I had you wasn't to worried about me four Years ago when you was making a baby with someone else."

"Joy I fucked up I understand but shit Joy give me a break."

"Give you a break really you think you deserve a fuckin break with all the shit you put me through from almost fuckin my sister to having a four year old daughter. Bitch you want a fuckin break when I've been faithful to you out of all these years. I never cheated on your ass you're the only man I've been with. And you want a fuckin break. Bitch you played me but no more Jasiyon. I can't deal with all this pain. I just can't I'm sorry." I said walking upstairs. "Lock the door when you leave oh and Happy Anniversary."