The Trail To Happy

Chapter 8

"Dr. Grimmsley was not a bad man, he was one of the best therapists I've ever had. He understood me and challenged me to trust and love and somehow, through these ways, he made me happy. The time he spent with his demons were his escape, but I don't believe he was a bad man. He taught me so much and I will never forget him. He was a wonderful contribution to the Earth and could've helped in many ways, but he was taken away by himself. Alone and disowned. I will never forget him, he is unforgetable and loving. But we didn't leave on good terms, there were some bruises along the way and they will stay forever. I love you Dr. Grimmsley,".

I shaved my head the day before in honor of him.

I went over to his casket and leaned over him and patted his unmoving chest.

Tears trickled down my face and I wept. I wept next to him until his funeral ended and until the late hours of the night. I walked back to his house from the church at about 11: 37 and went into his room. It still had the strong smell of alcohol and drugs, but it was Dr. Grimmsley's. I sat on his bed and wept.

I heard footsteps coming from down the hall. I looked up and quickly got into ninja position. Morgan poked her head in through the door.

"Hey," she sid sheepishly," I saw you walking here so I decided to follow you."

She came over and sat next to me. "I know," she said, it's hard to lose someon you love, right before your eyes." Her eyes glistened with tears in the moonlight streaming into the room. I looked her in the eyes.

"I have no one to turn to now," I said.

"You have me," Morgan said. She leaned over and kissed me on the cheek. I blushed. I leaned over and kissed her on the lips. Pretty soon we were making out, it was kind of weird though with my tears. We kissed until we were both tired and fell asleep, on the bed, together.

The one person left that would understand me, would now be in my heart forever. I will never see him again.

Maybe, in some way, his death made me happy. It's kind of a twisted revelation. But, it made me realize that I needed to change and not delve into the demons he did. Maybe, I will turn around. He was a good man but even good men have problems. I now realize how much I loved him and how much he meant to me. I will never love a man so much in my life. he became a father to me, or a brother, but I loved him and nothing will ever change that. I lie on the bed with Morgan, wondering how this man could die and leave me here alone, yet another person who broke his promise. But maybe the promise was his cage, he knew in his heart that he could never keep it, he would break it someday. A weight lifted off my shoulders and hopefully would never come back. I smiled, Kyle was looking down on me from where ever he was. I fell asleep and dreamed.

There I was in a white room, floating all by myself. I started crying and along came a dove. This dove sat on my shoulder and cuddled against me, then started changing. It turned into the shape of a man, of Dr. Grimmsley. He grabbed me and embraced me, I embraced back and sobbed, I sobbed and sobbed and sobbed.

"I will never leave you again," is what he said, " I will never leave, just look in your heart and that's where I'll be and we'll see eachother again someday soon."

"But.." I whimpered.

He started to float away, to disinigrate, to leave. I reached out my arms and he was gone. But he will never really be gone. My feet then touched the floor in my dream and I dropped to my knees and cried.

He'll be in my heart forever and I'll try to be content with that. I'll be happy and he'll be my torch to lead on the Trail to Happy.